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agMDF -> Assignment (6/6/2007 5:46:18 PM)
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i was given this assignment to write an essay...and to post it...just wanted to share it...and hope it is taken well...thank you
ag[MDF]
TRUST
When i first got into this lifestyle, and heard of subs/slaves getting writing assignments, i thought it wouldn’t make much difference. Yet when i was given this assignment, i took it very seriously. i was told to write what TRUST was and what it meant to me. I hadn’t really thought of what TRUST actually was or meant, so i looked it up to see exactly what the word TRUST meant and it was defined as reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. Synonyms for TRUST are: assurance, certainty, confidence, conviction, credit, dependence, entrustment, expectation, faith, gospel, truth, hope, positiveness, reliance, stock, store, sureness. If you don’t TRUST the person you are with then what kind of relationship is that?
i had an issue with my Daddy and instead of going straight to Him first, i went to “friends”, i didn’t take consideration how this would make Him feel or how that would appear that i didn’t trust Him enough. The advice that i was given was not wrong, however, i should have given Him the respect that He deserves and that He deserves and expects from me. i think my experience on cm has warped my views some. i had seen people come to me and Him for advice, but what i didn’t know was that He asks “have you spoken to your Dom/sub first?”. This is one of the problems with online, people who want to be in a relationship when they have problems, they don’t seek out their Dom/sub, they ask the advice of others and the gossip and rumors fly back and forth.
i have learned much since i have been with Daddy about TRUST, HONESTY, RESPECT and LOVE. It is a learning process though. i am learning that being in a relationship with someone you have to LEARN. i have to learn that you can’t bring your bad experiences from previous relationships to the one that you are in NOW!! It is hard, because especially when someone says or does something that reminds you of things from the past you tend to respond in the way that you are accustomed to but then you have to think “Those who don’t learn from the past are doomed to repeat it”, so you have to think is what happened to that relationship what you want to happen NOW??? i know i don’t. Then i have to learn to react differently.
No relationship you are in will ever be perfect, and it takes work, but if you remember the fundamentals and basics of TRUST, HONESTY, RESPECT and LOVE in place then how can it fail?? IT WON’T!!!!!
Sometimes i find it a lot easier to remember a little phrase to understand or remember something for instance in school learning the planet names making a silly sentence to remember them, so i tried to think of things to help me remember what TRUST is and this is what i came up with:
Talking
Responsibility
Understanding
Sharing
Talking
The reasons i chose what i did was first off think talking means communicating and that is an important trait to working out problems. i chose responsibility because you have to take responsibility for your part in things if you don’t, then you only start to blame. i chose understanding because if you aren’t patient and understanding and choose to listen to the other person then your relationship will start to break down because the other person will feel they can’t communicate with you. i chose sharing because if you don’t share your feelings and only keep them in then you will start to resent the other person. i chose talking for the last thing because it is so important to communicate it should be the first and last thing you do to work things out.
i can say it will be a while before i make this same mistake again of not going to Daddy and talk to Him first and for going to get others involved in things that were not their concern it was O/ours, for they are not in the relationship only Daddy and i. i am far from perfect and i know i will make other mistakes, but i do hope that Daddy and i can continue on this path of Him teaching and me learning and can work out O/our problems. He has never given me anything other than love and patience and helping me grow into the submissive that i should have become, but knew it would take someone very special to bring that out, and how lucky i am that i have found Him. i only hope that i can continue on and make Him proud of me. i can only thank Him everyday for the things He does for me and to me. Thank You Daddy
Your babygirl always
angelicgoddess[MDF]
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please do tell me what you think...thanks again for reading
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