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daddysprop247 -> RE: Feeling it more (6/19/2007 12:22:07 PM)
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ORIGINAL: becca333
Thank you all for the information and advice - and it helps to know that others have experienced the same thing.
It's not a fear of marks, or a change in submission. I love marks, I wish he'd give me more, but I rarely get them and I glory in them. I'm a sadly fast fader, too. And it's not any confusion over submission, I've never felt so happy or valued, and I find pure joy in being his sub. That's what's so frustrating.
And part of my disappointment is because I was improving, I was taking more and more and pleasing him so much. And suddenly I've lost all my resistance to pain, or something.
It certainly could be hormones - we blame them for everything else!
Thank you all, this has helped me a lot.
unless it's something that you know displeases your Master, why be disappointed that your pain tolerance has decreased, even significantly? in my case, my pain tolerance has always been very low. all it takes is one lash of the belt for my eyes to water. a firm spanking will have me biting my lower lip until it bleeds. i'm just a big ol' pain punk. however this doesn't effect my Master's enjoyment/fulfillment in subjecting me to pain, in fact it enhances it a bit since he doesn't have to work as hard to get the desired effect. when he wants to make me suffer as an outlet of his own tension, or even if he just wants to sadistically delight in my torment, i can serve him in this way just as well and in many cases better than a "pain slut" since my threshold is low.
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