slave2behis
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Let me see, where to begin? Um... when this egg met this sperm.. No that is too early.. I guess what you people want to hear is the fact that I am a no limits slave. In fact I enjoy being pushed beyond what most people would even think of.
Until recently I was owned by a very dominant sadistic Master. I left him and not out of rancor or dissatisfaction but mainly because he was OLLLLLDDDDD very old. BTW, he was more than able to keep up with me, but he would never do anything he didn't like and I thought I needed dancing, raves, and more. After being here I am beginning to doubt the wisdom of my move.
One of the hundreds of men who wrote to me and was actually trying to be helpful suggested I post in the forums. He said that the quality of folks here was much better, and that I could very well meet the right person.
I am well educated and perhaps a rare bird for I seek it all. A really almost abusive man who can make me tremble and desire to serve him. It is a paradox but I am happiest when I have been forced to do the most degrading things and/or hurt beyond imagination. While those things happen I beg, weep and wail, but if one stops then I am hurt and upset.
Fantasies about BDSM were in my mind from the age of 8 or 9, and I wrote them down. When my parents found them when I was 11 they were appalled and didn't know what to do. Neither did I. I went to shrinks, I self abused, cut, and even tried to kill myself a couple of time. Institutionalized for a while I had an epiphany, namely why was I hurting me? Perhaps my parents could not accept who and what I am, they probably felt guilt, but I could and can. I am a pervert I think I was born that way. There was no abuse in my family, no trauma, etc. Instead I was a high achiever. (graduated college at 20)
Well when in H. S. I discovered the Internet and chatted with people and got involved with fantasy. I met my Former Master on line, but he found out my age and dropped me like a hot potato. But then, ah yes, then I discovered that a creative perv like myself could actually make money on line! I made about 38,000 the first year while still in college. BTW, talk about naive, I didn't realize one had to pay taxes on that money...Of course I had no life other than class, study, and Internet. But oddly I didn't miss sex, etc. nor did I miss being dominated. Heck I was dominating lots of guys on line.
I met a man who was a total sadist, and did not care a wit about me. (this is the hard part) He gave me a gift of Herpes and of course I was back in the dumps thinking those destroy yourself thoughts and my Former Master and I hooked up again and he explained that it was not the end of the world that it was not AIDS and I could learn to live with it, etc. One thing quickly led to another and I became his property, moved in and served him as well as some of his other slave. I can honestly say I had never been happier. But then something began to nag at me... You see he is old enough to be my great grandfather... It never really bothered me, I never looked at him as old, but he didn't want to go dancing and/or to concerts, etc., things that a young woman would want. So I decided to leave him. Interestingly enough and because he has great intuition he realized my desire and actually assisted me in leaving him. He said that although I was his property he wanted me to know that I was really a free spirit and as such if I wanted to leave, there was the door. However, he didn't shut that door, he allows it to remain open and says that if I want to come back he will take me back because as he puts it, if a bird flies out of the cage and then comes back you know the bird wants to be there... so I am here looking. So far out of hundreds of replies, etc., almost none have figured anything out about me. Master had given me some hints prior to leaving and one of them was to not allow my pictures to be stolen, among many other hints.
So I guess that is a bit about who I am. Oh yes, limits? There are none for this slave. However, the Master has to be very special and highly creative too for he would not want me to become bored..
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