RiotGirl -> RE: TPE, 24/7, live-in, slave (6/9/2005 2:57:07 PM)
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Drat the computer. To re count what i've already said. Thanks for all the replies!! So basically, its just going to be normal life. And to not be nervous. As it will prolly just be alot like living with some one? Course what i was worried about was like being whipped or such every night and being left sleeping tied up and standing to the wall. Or like random spankings, or random whippings, or other things. Or like learning all the things he thinks i need to learn that i havent yet (yeah yeah yeah, i'm thick headed) Not excatly sure what those "things" are or how i'm to learn them... AND i know he's got the hook things into the wall already.. Oh and i know, i will be doing the things that make his life easier, and alot less computer, alot better sleep, alot better eating habits and soon i'll quite smoking. i know i wont be able to get away with the things i can get away with now, as when he's around i rarely get away with anything. (i'm one of those people that if you give an inch, i'll take two miles. i'm also one of those people that if CAN be sneaky, i tend to be) So i know i wont be able to be sneaky or get away with any little miss behavoirs (not that i want to get away with them, its just how i am. i'm great at rationalizing) i suppose his comment ALONG time ago when we first start talking about living together and i asked him if i should be nervous. His reply was "Remember when you met me and you were nervous, well you should be 10 times that) and then the comment about truely becomeing fully TPE and getting more so serious about it. (as its really difficult an hour away from each other) and then of course his comment that i hae alot to learn and then of course him ALONG time ago thinking i should ask what its like to be a full time slave. So............ i suppose i'm abit erm, unsure of what to expect! Though i suppose i could have an idea, but the idea leaves me abit nervous, as it is only an idea.. Though and i suppose as pain helps me find my place, i might be in my place alot more and well the getting there.... (oh and i'm also a closet masochist in my body is ready to admit it but i am NOT) (with sadistic tendencies, that i've no problem admitting!!) LOL but i can completely deal with the thought that its just going to be more like normal life. Heh. course i am completely look forward to it, but i'm also one of those people that gets abit nervous about the "unknown" i tend to like to know excatly whats going to happen, when its going to happen, how and why. Not knowing, leaves me abit nervous! LOL And as far as my terms. = ) (i love smacking this topic around) i know not everyone agrees, or uses the terms i use, which is fine and dandy, but being the fact that i AM speaking, i AM gonna use them. Ha
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