I am new to this part of me.

I have had more and more upheavals of desires in my heart to be positioned as a submissive woman. I fight feelings of confussion and disgused when I try and look for the answer. I would like to talk to someone who wouldn't mind to take the time to help me sort it all out. I feel like I cant breathe anymore and I am fighting for air. I hope to find who I am and keep my spirit intact. Maybe one day this will be real and not a dream.