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janedoedoe -> Home (7/7/2007 2:08:47 AM)
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I have found my home: my peace, my happiness, my security. Only, I am not sure if I will ever manage to get there, despite realizing where it is that my heart rests. I am just aching and exhausted from the constant struggle that is surviving, and I am hoping for a miracle. I am venting. I doubt there is much help for me. The best possible outcome coheres with my ability to discipline myself religiously. I need to learn how to support myself, and I wish to live in England some day. For a number of reasons, this goal has yet to be achieved. I am still highly dependent on the support of others for my sustainance. I suppose, apart from expressing my feelings, I am pleading for any means by which I might move closer to my home. I have plenty of attributes that could be used positively and productively. I am even pretty versatile. Though, I think it is mainly a lack of clear direction and drive which leaves these qualities dormant.
I wonder if I am capable of working out these kinks on my own. I do not believe that I will get too far waiting for some one or some thing to move me along.
Comments would not be unwelcomed ...
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