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camille65 -> RE: Never Felt So Scared, Never Felt so Alive (7/14/2007 4:16:45 PM)
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ORIGINAL: angelic
Has there ever been a time in your life where you never felt so scared, yet felt so alive? i am sure you all can guess what mine was, i am just curious what your experience was.
Yup. 23 months ago I had that experience.
For several months I'd been sick and had pretty bad stomach pains, I assumed it was stress due to going through a divorce. One morning I was awakened by really sharp pain and (sorry it is icky lol) I was throwing up so hard I was flinging myself against the wall in recoil.
I was unaware but my gallbladder had burst inside me. I knew without a doubt that if I didn't get to the ER immediately I was going to die. I did not want to die, despite the divorce and losing my job I had this feeling of trying to physically hold on to life. There were too many people to love for me to let go, there was too much I wanted to do.
So many things were realised in that moment, so much came into perspective. Thankfully most of it has stayed with me. I donate more, I try and help others even more than I had previously. I realised that one person can make a difference in the world even if it is just a teensy difference.
Ended up in a 6 hour surgery with 29 staples across my stomach and a 10 day ICU stay. It was the most humbling moment I've had yet to date.
Time IS short, it is precious. Life is wonderous and humanity fills me with awe. Tell the people that you love how you feel. Don't count on being able to tell them tomorrow.
Grab as much life as you can and don't let go. There is so much to learn, so much to see that one lifetime isn't enough but if you try it makes all the difference.
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