angelic -> RE: Are you really owned if you are not treated like property? (7/22/2007 10:00:17 AM)
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ORIGINAL: ownedgirlie I had to laugh, and trust me when I say I am joking here, but of course a slave won't suffer if she lists virtually everything she finds uncomfortable on her limit list. [;)] But in all seriousness, in my case, it is not that I necessarily want to suffer for him, it is that I am willing to (although I have been known to beg to do some very difficult things for him, simply because I felt driven to). And I do not always do it happily. There are some things he has had me do that have been downright dreadful and I didn't find joy in them at all, until later when the result of having done so was an amazing change in our relationship. Now, just because something is dreadful doesn't mean I'm complaining about it, either. I simply do it, without question, because he has required it of me. There are some things I've held a deep breath for and done, without smiling, without complaining, simply bucked up and did. And it's not that he sets out looking for things that will cause me suffering. But he does find it more endearing to know I am willing to do whatever it takes, regardless of hardship, suffering, difficulty, whatever. To see evidence of it simply touches his heart and likely feeds his ego as well. Such difficulties also aid in my own growth and strength. When I mentally run down the list of difficult and dreadful things I have accomplished for him, it seems there is nothing the world can throw at me that I can not handle. In my particular situation, I don't see any of that as a bad thing. But I'll agree, if he made me give up my Peets (coffee), well damn, that's suffering! [8D] Yep.. Step away from my coffee! ;) Again, it is one's definition of suffering. You do things for your Master because He is your Master. Yes they may be difficult, but there is an end to it and (most importantly) there is a reason for it. Even if the reason is simply it will please him. From what you have posted in the past, he is very secure in his ownership of you and does not need to prove it to himself or you. i have difficulty with Owners that have to have tangible proof that they own their property. And i willingly admit i cannot get my head wrapped around that concept as being anything more than insecurity. And to clarify an earlier post about how i think it starts in your heart and mind. For me, it starts in my mind. It is easier to get into my heart than it is to get into my head. As an example, my former master is no longer in my heart. He is, however, very much still in my head, now the thought process has changed from when he owned me, but he does indeed flit through my brain on a regular basis. So the reverse is also true, it is easier for me to get 'you' out of my heart than it is my head.
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