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forHERuseonly -> A re-transformation (8/3/2007 6:41:41 AM)
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Many years ago I shared a (sort of) switch relationship with my now ex-wife....Dom for basic vanilla sex but a good subbie boy for BDSM play. Over the years since the divorce I have had a couple of vanilla relationships and a couple of BDSM where I ended up Dom. The problem is I have decided that I REALLY LOVE being sub to a woman. Maybe a bit of a switch, but definitely wanting to be subbie to a woman.
I had spent my whole life in charge and it is SO exhilerating to just let go, mentally & physically. I am giving serious thought to finding a 24/7 where I can be in quasi-domestic & sexual servitude. I would like one where I have input as to HOW things are, maybe an occassional joint decision, but leave the final decision to a Mistress/Domme.
I find that I am finally redefining who I really want to be based on past experiences, working through all the crap of the divorce (and its' aftermath), and the trials & tribulations of defining myself since.
I had a Dom profile on another web site, but have since added a different one as a submissive...with NO reference to the Dom one. I feel I should do that and then close the Dom profile. I do believe honesty is the only way to truly make things work.
I have met a woman who claims she wants to be a sub...but in reality she is just a very passive personality that always does as she sees fit. I see her as maybe a switch but more likely a Domme with the very passive reserved personality. She also has some trust issues.
I'm trying to figure out how to break it to her about my decision on lifestyle. I will probably just be straight forward and let the chips fall where they may...????
I'm not really sure if there is a question here....but I know I seem to have a few as I change gears.
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