lovewithoutfear
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Taggard wrote, "Feel free to post all the details! " My brand, unlike most (I think) was done on the spur of the moment. We'd been together about a year. He'd talked to me about it a time or two and I had found the idea a huge turn-on. We are both pagan, and we tend to blend aspects of our spiritual path into our daily lives and into our M/s dynamic. And we both thought of a brand as a deeply symbolic thing, a step that would ritually affirm our bond. But we didn't plan for it specifically. Both of us are spontaneous people. One day I was at his place, (which was being remodeled) and he just picked up a 16d nail (which I still have) and a blowtorch, and told me he was going to brand me so I was to lie down on my belly across the mattress, which I did without a second thought. He held the nail in a pair of pliers, heated it till he was sure it was sterile, then touched the head of it to a spot on the center of my lower back for about a second or a second and a half. Made a nice round blister. It didn't occur to me to flinch, I didn't feel a thing, didn't have time to get nervous or anything. I just felt excited and trusting. It hurt a bit afterwards, of course, as any burn will, but that was nothing. I just turned over and looked up at him, and we could feel the air humming with what we'd done. I still feel a bit of that, and his hand on me, anytime I touch the scar. The changes in consciousness that the experience evoked for us have been ongoing. It was a chaotic time in our lives and the brand seemed a point of stability (because of its permanence) that yet was woven out of the chaos (because of the spontaneity). The brand is a reminder to me of his creativity which I enjoy, and his ownership which reassures me...and a reminder to him of my flexibility, instant acceptance and unquestioning obedience of which he is very proud. It is a sign that our commitment to each other is for keeps, whatever unforeseen wierdness life throws at us. Whatever wacky shape our lives may take, we can honor and celebrate it, in part because the dynamic of control and obedience between him and me is one constant we can both always count on. Perhaps as a sign of that, perhaps because the gods have a sense of humor, the brand scar (now smooth and white) didn't stay round either. It's right where the waistband of pants rubs, so it didn't heal evenly, and now it looks kind of like Idaho. Which is appropriate, since I da 'ho for him! Smiles JY Edited for spelling.
< Message edited by lovewithoutfear -- 8/12/2007 2:15:25 PM >
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