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GreyStorm -> The duality of love, hitting the wall, and one damn incredible song...... (7/6/2005 9:48:21 PM)
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wish I had a good girl to miss me
but I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I woke up this morning on my couch and my first thought was of her. You know the one, the pet that wasn't right for you. It's coming up on the anniversary of our meeting. I can hardly believe I knew her three years. It seems like it's been just a few weeks. Three years of laughter, fun, joy, heartache, arguing, broken promises, and God knows what else. It was love. It was a good love, it was a bad love. The highest of highs, the lowest of lows. We got through the good times and the bad together, just knowing we loved each other was enough.
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Since you've been gone my worlds been dark and gray
You reminded me of brighter days
I hope you'd be coming home to stay
Everything seemed to remind me of you today. No matter where I looked, I saw you. No matter who I talked to, I heard you. I got good news today, a promotion at work. I was very happy. I used to tell you my good news straight away. Now I don't have you to turn to anymore to share my smiles. It was my choice I know. I couldn't deal with who I was becoming, what I was turning into around you. I had to end it. I'm happier now, but I still miss you something fierce. That's why I'm up eighteen hours after getting up off my couch thinking of you writing this stupid post. I want to write it out and get it out of my system. I hit the wall today. Depression overtook me. Six months after I told you I couldn't go on with "us" anymore. I cried today. Between my jobs. I took fifteen minutes for myself and let it out. I had been holding it in too long. It's downhill from here. I knew this day would come to me. The kicker today??? This song. A Kid Rock, Sheryl Crow song of all things. You see, Dave gave me a copy of Kid Rock's third album. I didn't expect it. Track nine. Listen to it. Incredible is all I can say.
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I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't stand why we’re living life this way
I have no illusions. I know what is best for me. It isn't you. I know I love you and always will love you. But you and me together, nope. Just so wrong. Who knows when or if I'll find someone else to love, a guy can hope, has to have hope, 'cause without hope.....well what would be the point. But I know I'm better off alone right now. There have been others since we parted ways, small, half hearted attempts at something, but it wasn't the time.
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I put your picture away
sat down and cried today
I cant look at you while I'm lying next to her
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