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ownedgirlie -> RE: Dream Control, Anyone? (9/2/2007 3:18:08 PM)
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I posted a well thought out reply to this and now it is gone. Not sure why....?
So I will try again.
Since the beginning of time, I have had recurring nightmares. It was always the same dream, horrible, painful and gruesome. If I woke up in the middle and fell back to sleep, it would continue. I would always wake up in an anxiety attack from them.
The last time I had one, I woke up screaming in the middle of the night, calling out to my Master. It was 3am. Since I do not live with him, I turned to my laptop to IM him. Believe it or not he was right there, and talked me down. And then he ordered me to never have that dream again. I thought that was a cute order, but unlikely that I could fulfill it. The next time I had the dream, just as it was beginning this thought shot into my head - "I'm not allowed to have this dream anymore." and I woke up. I have never had it since, and that was two years ago.
So yes, he influences my dreams. I attribute it to our connection and our practice of energy transferring. He will periodically tell me to dream about him, and I will, if I'm able to get a good REM sleep (I have sleep issues so that doesn't always happen).
In my last post, I also wrote about a DVD that I have, called "Waking Life." It's a philosophical movie, that questions whether we are living a dream or dreaming our lives? It follows a man through a series of dreams, as he asks existential and philosophical questions that are left unanswered for the audience to ponder. It's done in rotoscope (digital film traced over with animation) and is quite interesting, but very heavy. The sound track is good, too.
As for orgasms, if you can cum on your own but not with him, my guess is you are not relaxed. Where is your mind when you are trying to cum? Are you relaxed or does your mind wander to the stresses of the day, and life in general? Are you anxiety-ridden trying to "get one out for him?" What helped me achieve stronger orgasms is rather than trying to push one out, I opened up my mind and body, closed my eyes, and let him come in and take over. I draw in his energy and feel it consume me, and give my body over to him. Where your focus is can change everything.
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