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Prinsexx -> From the edge (9/5/2007 3:31:00 AM)
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New here......writer.........
A dear on line friend of mine who lives in Holland told me about this site well about four/five weeks ago....time is a many splendid thing. I am non-scene here in England and on the surface of things, quite reclusive. I am a writer which, ask anyone who does, takes an enormous amount of time.
I also run a busy hynosis and sex therapy business and lecture AND am a single mother of two remaining.
If there's time for a bdsm life it intensely squeezed (please) between other realities.
I came out of a relationship with a Dom five months ago. I was, as his submissive, far more experienced than he, which wasn't at all a case of topping from the bottom, but the more extreme I got, and I am edgy, the more he thinly disguised his need to swing as polyamorousness, so it ended leaving me bereft and without edges. I am sure many submissives here have shared that feeling. I won't be used as fodder for other swine.
I am psychic, intensely so, and this stems from being a twin. She is my complete opposite, a true, earthed dominant woman. Our predilections reflect our relationship as children. We are both published. I would sincerely like to write that breakthrough novel, that conjoined reality, created by a submissive writer and a dominant.
I find boundaries difficult and can have an almost symbiotic affinity for a kindred spirit but all my relationships are sparks of inspiration for my writing: this saves me from the pit of depression and despair.
I wish it could all be vanilla and simple for me, but it never was and never will be.
I fell in love (confession) and felt entirely enslaved almost immediately with someone here. He knows whom he is but he has stopped responding, shocked I feel by my intensity. I apologise remorsefully now if that turns out to be the case, as all I have at heart is total submission. I am enriched and fascinated by the complexity of sexuality, melded and weaving in and out of complex intelligences.
It's not my past lives which are hidden from my view but the nature of my future which I prefer to keep as a mystery. I can do tea-cup readings and tarot for others but remain, as we all most do, poised on the edge of what comes next.................
Princess Angelchild
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