jthaddeus
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Joined: 6/11/2007 Status: offline
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I first spoke with SadistMasterMax over 3 months ago. We talked a lot, and the conversations moved to email and instant messages, but I was always too afraid to meet in person. A few weeks later, he asked me to take his boy Dustin hiking. Dustin is an amazing young man and we spoke about his life since becoming Max's boy, and the concept both excited me, but still scared me, being so distinctly different from anything I'd known in real life. As I'm currently in training for a winter ascent of the Sierras, I finally worked up the courage to come down and visit so as to share a workout session with his (pending) slave Jason (also, a fine and well traveled young man) Not only was the workout more intense than any I'd had in the Army, but the conditions under which it happened were intimate and there was an obvious caring shared amongst them, and I felt immediately disarmed by the gentle command Max has over the household. Before, when I thought of sadists, I thought of someone who enjoyed hurting other people and "being mean" I'm still coming to terms with the concept of a truly caring sadist. When we first talked, I felt bad, as I could not answer so many of his questions honestly with anything more than an "I don't know" or "I think X, but I've never tried" I felt immediately comfortable that very first night, and ended up sleeping on the floor next to the Masters bed, with his slave Jason, while his boy Dustin slept in bed with him. The next time I came down, I was allowed to try wearing a collar. No contract or obligation so it was nothing like being "really" collared I suppose, but still it was exciting. My workout wasn't nearly as long as I was still suffering from the previous workout and thankfully Master Max was more attentive to my condition than I was, and he noticed that I'd not kept up properly on my meds, and had me remedy the situation. (He'd taken the time to read up on my condition before inviting me down) That evening I found my balls in a vice, and the following morning began with more torture. While I can say for certain that I do not like the genital torture at all, I still found the experience of really submitting for it to be amazingly powerful. We later went out to their friends house, with me still collared, and then out to a movie theater which was a little unnerving, but overall a very positive experience. I was rather surprised at the complete lack of attention walking around collared gets. I suppose for enough people they're fashion accessories, that no one takes any notice. Later that evening, after more running I was given the opportunity to shower with and then dry Dustin, which was amazing both in that I truly am attracted to him mentally and emotionally, he approaches my idea of a god physically, and the very act of being there, on my knees soaping his feet, and later to be sopping wet toweling him off as he stood there, smiling and confident, I believe might have been one of the highlights of my stay. Later that evening, after my workout was over, it was time for me to go home, but first I went out with Dustin to do some shopping. Before the trip my collar was removed, and although I know it was not a "real" collar, still the removal had me at first both hurt and bitter for a few moments until I remembered that it was never my collar to begin with. Furthermore I have been given the chance to come back and see if I fit into this household after the shock has worn off, and if so, perhaps to have the chance to become part of it. :) Overall, I could not be happier, and I find it hard to wipe the smile off my face, which causes my friends to ask what's going on. Anyway, I am incredibly happy right now, but also feeling almost dazed by the whole experience and trying to compose myself again before heading back down there this evening. -- James
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