YourhandMyAss -> We've done nothing but bicker and argue, my little rant (9/26/2007 10:33:42 AM)
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ok, so his work's shitty he's overly tired a lot, and add to that I haven't honestly had any bdsm play time for several months, and I am lonly and I need to play, and he's the only one I can play with, and I am sick of not seeing him enough, and I am sick of him not playing with me enough,so I was a bit to needy, he makes some stupid comment, I rebutt, so he gets mad, a fight ensue's. then he's like fine if you don't stop bitching I'm not taking you to folsom fringe, I said if you don't take me I am making you repay me the 300 dollars it cost plus cancelation fee's next payday. he got even more mad. come end of the night I am tired I am wore out and more than a bit withdrawn, so I leave early, because I dont feel like talking and I want to be left alone. Second night more bickering and bitching, stupid stuff dunno why really, but it happend and so again, bedtime was early cause I was tired and worn out and didn't wanna be on the phone. so after about 3 nights in a row of bitching and bickering, 4th night, It starts out good, a tiny bit rocky but we get it undercontrol, so then I am being silly and playing with him, earlier my face had itched and I said I rubbed it on him, and oh no he had my face all over him. Later I said you still have my face whatcha gonna do with it and he gets mad and starts yelling at me and then threatens AGAIN not to come to folsom fringe with me, so I state ok if you choose not to come you loose any and all rights to any say of what goes on or what I do* period* he says fine. he keeps trying to dangle this trip in my face and I am tired of it. I just wanted a nice happy night, and he got mad and chose to start a fight over something stupid, then goes and starts spouting off how he should go kill himself then, knowing it's emotional black mail and manipulation when he does that. So another night ended up in tears and me leaving early cause I didn't want to be on the phone any more. I am so sick of this and I am so wore out emotionally and mentally I almost agree I sh ould go to sanjose with out him. Of course A it wouldn't be much fun with out him, and B I can't afford bus tickets and so couldn't go with out him even if I wanted to which I don't.
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