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Phoenixandnika -> RE: Meeting in person (7/26/2005 12:08:14 PM)
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Several years ago I meet a dominate online. We talked on the phone, via messenger. We meet in real time several times. We went out dancing one saturday, he ordered me a drink while I was dancing. I took a sip of my drink and before I knew it felt dizzy and my felt heavy. I do not remember going home. The next thing I remember was me waking up in my bed nude, my skirt and top from the night before on the my bedroom floor covered in vomit and 2 condom wrappers on the floor next to them. I had scratches and bruises. This was someone I had known for sometime in real time. I took all the precations everyone said to take when meeting.
It took a year for me to admit to myself yet anyone else what happend to me. The thought of meeting someone else scared the bejebus out of me. But I refused to let someone else control me that way. I refused to be ruled by fear. I am part of several role-play forums and lifestyle forums like this one.
My Master and I meet in GCN Gor (a role- play forum) and became friends. I often found myself slipping into his IM laying my head on his lap sometimes we would talk about our days, other times he would simply run his hand through my hair, other times we would be simply play poker together.Some days we simply said hello and went on way.
Over time we began turning to each other more and more. He was involved in another relationship at the time but we saw our friendship growing daily. In time he became my best friend, my closest confidant and I was his.
There came a point the real time reationship he was in ended and I found myself batteling within myself. I found myself in love with my best friend aching to be owned and Mastered by him. In time I found myself begging his collar.
I was so suprised when he put his collar on me, I was so proud to be his. Then before I knew it my world was turned upside down. The man I loved was battling with self doubt and the need for closure with his previous relationship. The day he took his collar off me I cried for hours but I knew he needed this for himself and for us, even if we were only meant to be friends.
During the following days and weeks, we both cried. We both were so scared of hurting, hurting ourselves or someone else.My worse fear though was that I would loose my best friend. Several weeks passed and he told me he would be making the trip to Maryland with me and my kids.
I had my doubts, would he really fly from NewYork to California to simply get on a train the next day with me and the kids, a woman he had released a woman who had cried so many tears because of indescision. Would he really show up?
Decemeber 1, 2005 I found myself at the Modesto airport at 1 am melting into his arms. That moment I knew, I knew I loved him and wanted to try and fix us. We spent that night in each others arms and the next 5 days on train with 2 kids. I remember the snow ball fights and the nights he would complain about not being able to get comfy. I remember seeing that look in his eyes.
I lost count of how many times he made me cum during that trip.
*blushes*
He was amazing. It felt so right, so natural. He stayed several day with us in Maryland. I hated it when he had to go back to NewYork, to settle work and other things.
January 15, 2005 was the begining of the rest of our lives. Frank made the biggest move of his life and moved to a strange State, away from his job, his family, and his friends simply because he wanted me as his girl.
Me, I was a broken gothic doll. I didnt get it but who was I argue.
*thinks that alone is proof he needs mental help*
*laughs*
Today, I wear his collar proudly. It was custom made by his best friend. It is made of simple silver links, with 2 clasping points, the clasps are heart shaped, the pieces can be taken apart to form 2 bracelets. I have vowed that it will NEVER be taken off.
My Master and I have grown through trials and tribulations as friends and as Master and slave. I am his everything as he is mine. Together we have grown and explored together but this is just the begining. We have barely scratched the surface of what the future holds as Master and slave.
He accepts the best and worst in me as I do him. We dont claim to be perfect, nor do we want perfection, but we are perfect for each other!
On July 18. 205 we became engaged we will be married August of 2006.
I consider us lucky, that it has turned out as it has. We work hard to make it work.
Like anything you take the good with the bad. You cherish the good , learn and move past the bad.
nika, Phoenix's deviant slave
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