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EvilGenie -> RE: complain about your family here (10/11/2007 4:00:13 PM)
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SOME parents aren't delighted to see us after a 12 hour drive. SOME are not even that delighted to see us when we return from having lived abroad for 7 years. Maybe that should help me in leaving again though it does not. I have reasons for leaving again, mainly not them, but they're certainly included. My mother is what you'd call, and what I guiltily call, a domineering bitch. I was horribly mentally abused by her from age 10 which she can even figure out how to accomplish via email. Yup, 14 years of therapy and a wonderful Moroccan husband have taught me a great deal. Was married back in Morocco where I used to live in June '07 and everyone knew I'd be leaving the US again. I tried bringing him here and US said no plus I don't want to stay and he only wanted to stay a year. So, I am off again. My brother killed himself 2 years ago at age 51, he never could get over her or his hatred for her. I can remember even when small dad would not and still will not even dress without asking her what to wear.
I remember being told a particular something as an adult (in my late late 20s), depressed and in an abusive relationship which she knew about. I went once a week to the house for dinner and was told on more than one occasion, ''if you can't come here with a smile on when I open the door, don't come.'' This when she was aware that the meal at their house was the only real meal I received all week.
I am readying to leave again in January to be with my husband. The seperation has been the worst most significant pain we have ever known and the guilt trip and arguing is thick and heavy. I prefer to think of it as homemade chocolate sour cream frosting that I can lick off! I'd rather have burned meatballs than a bowl of fried sense of self which took a long time to find and make myself.
Be Well!
EG
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