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ORIGINAL: Treasure3

Months ago, during a conversation where my Dom asked how I felt about him playing with or talking with other submissives, I asked if he decided to play with anyone else, would he mind telling me first so I wouldn't have to hear it from someone else.  (There was one friend in particular at the time who loved calling and telling me he was playing with another sub.)  He agreed.  Exclusivity was put on the table for discussion a month or so later (again a topic he brought up), and he said he would let me know his decision on that, but there have been no more discussions about it yet. 

Since then, he has made several comments about his promise to tell me before playing, and I just thought it was his way of letting me know he remembered what he said.  He's also made it a point to tell me several times that he isn't looking for anyone to play with at all.  The other day, though, he said something that has kind of made me wonder.  He had said he needed to play then (our next visit is in a few days) but would be a grown-up and wait until I got there.  He went on to point out that he had turned down several offers for play recently because he had promised to talk with me about it first.

It felt really strange to hear him say that.  I still don't quite know how to take it.  I never asked that he not play with anyone, and have even asked a couple of times if he needed to since it was going to be a week or so before we saw each other.  I just asked that he be the one to tell me - first - that he was going to play with another.  Since the exclusivity question has never been formally answered, and I agreed to let him make that decision, I feel it isn't my place to say whether he can or can't play with another sub.

I asked him if he regretted agreeing to tell me first, and he said no, not at all.  I asked him why he didn't accept some of the offers he had turned down, and he said because I am the only one he wants.  Maybe I'm just being super sensitive right now, but if that is the case, then why even mention the other offers and how he turned them down even though he wants to play so much?  Is this just a macho guy kind of thing?  We've had a bit of a rocky time lately, and, like I said, maybe I'm just overly sensitive right now, but I just don't understand why it needed to be said at all, especially like it was my fault that he wasn't getting the play he wanted.

Should I bring this up with him or just let it go?  Communication is something we need to work on.  He doesn't like to talk about anything relationship-wise, and I have caught him in situations where he has told me one thing (what he thinks I want to hear) and a friend another about our relationship and I have trouble believing he is telling me all I need to know.  If I bring it up, I know I'm going to get that deep sigh that says, "oh god, do we really have to do this?" and it doesn't matter how I try to approach it or how light I keep it.  Yet, he says he doesn't want me to keep things to myself, that I am to tell him what I am thinking and if there is something that is bothering me.  I'm confused!  Help, please!

 

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[Treasure3 wrote: Should I bring this up with him or just let it go?

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then why even mention the other offers and how he turned them down even though he wants to play so much?  Is this just a macho guy kind of thing?

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but if that is the case, then why even mention the other offers and how he turned them down even though he wants to play so much?