NorthernGent
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T, I can relate to your post; it's the order of a working week that I find claustrophobic. Up at 7, in work at 8, break time, lunch time, break time.....meeting the same people, listening to the same conversations...home by 7pm....something to eat...pretty much the end of the day.....work in the morning etc. Totally routine and predictable. So, when the weekend comes 'round, I eat when I want to eat...sometimes I'll have nothing to eat until 5pm, and I have a huge appetite.....shower and get dressed whenever it suits, go to the pub whenever it suits..sometimes 12 in the afternoon, sometimes not at all.....sometimes I'll have some work to do...sometimes I'll take a woman out.....sometimes I'll go to a football match....but regardless, I do it in my own time. I know that mobiles aren't so popular in the US, but over here, everyone has one....it's like being fuckin' tagged.....at weekends, I don't turn mine on until I want to talk to someone, and I don't have a landline, so no one can get hold of me (that's the plan). All of my mates and family know not to bother me on a weekend, as I'll get in touch with them when I'm ready. I'm like you in that I like to do my own thing.....it's not so much that I don't like company, because I do; in fact, I like people, I like being around people.....it has to be on my terms though, when I'm good and ready. But, I can't see the logic in allowing politics and the world to piss you off.......there's a line to be drawn between doing what you can to influence events around you, and allowing them to take control of you when your influence isn't enough. Win some, lose some etc. I look back at most of the items I've bought, and, in hindsight, most of it was totally useless....it's a bitter pill to swallow when you realise that you've been duped by the world around you......working far too many hours to buy stuff that you don't need in order to go along with the norm of what it means to be alive. But, a problem can't be solved where it isn't identified in the first instance, so every cloud has a silver lining etc. I don't owe a single person one penny...I have in the past through paying my way at University, but that's it...credit cards: don't have one...if I can't pay with the money in my account, then I can't afford it, and I'm certainly not going to get into debt in order to buy stuff that I don't need...and pretty much everything falls into that category....do I need a materialistic woman? absolutely not...or a new car? no.....or a new television? no...none of that stuff will improve my life...in fact, it will only serve to piss me off because I know I will have bought on the back of society's norms rather than my own idea of what it means to be alive. For me, a weekend is an opportuntity to regain control...and money, well, I suppose I'm a simple lad, really. Peasant stock to be precise!...but I wouldn't have it any other way. My background is working class, and my family never had any money; when I started to make some, I chased my tail for about 7 years, working hard and buying lots, but always knew in the back of my mind that something wasn't quite right.......one day, the penny dropped....having lots of money and spending lots of money just isn't me......reading, learning, a beer down the pub with mates, football, spending time with family: none of that costs very much, but is infinitely more enjoyable than a lifestyle of doing whatever it takes at work to earn lots of money in order to spend it on stuff that doesn't mean anything. To me, beneath the veneer of "the norm", that lifestyle is nihilistic. Sounds like things are getting on top of you, T, maybe it's time to reassess what's important, and what isn't.
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