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Celeste43 -> RE: why we are, how we are (11/1/2007 6:55:59 AM)
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Personally I've always assumed it came from puberty onset depression at a time when such in pediatrics was not considered possible, and there were no effective treatments anyway. Barring electroshock which at the time left you with major damage to memory.
The truth is, struggling with depression day in and day out for years doesn't leave you with the needed energy to forge ahead and be the great leader. I'm grateful when someone else will be the leader and allow me to help while still knowing I can give some of the load back if I just don't have the strength to deal. Add to that a puberty onset mental illness in my oldest, and my rapidly approaching menopause, and it's obvious I have to be careful about expending all my energy.
Doing requires a certain kind of energy, but planning requires a different, and one I just don't have that much of. Especially when decision making for me involves trying to make sure everyone else gets what they need out of it, while never considering my needs important. He will make decisions that take into account my needs and I'm very grateful to him for that. It's a vast relief to lean on him in need.
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