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What happened? - 8/6/2005 5:49:21 AM

RiotGirl

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Okay last night i got deemed a painslut by Master. Blistered my bottom with a one inch thick, two by four stick while i rode him to emm.. a frenzied.. um place.

So well that was all fine and good (even if it was abit strange, as i'm known to HATE pain). But shortly after, when i was able to breathe and to stand and um shaking so visibly, i started to like shake internally and i just NEEDED to touch him, be held, but i didnt reach out, and i curled up around my bunny (fav position for anxiety) and i started crying. And he kept asking what was wrong/giving assurance that all was okay. Dunno what was wrong. Maybe adreneline rush? But he held me and spoke softly to me while i fell asleep which took for ages for me to finally calm down and relax. then a sense of peace so extreme.. Being in his arms.. which of course took me longer to fall asleep because my brain was examining it. Oddly it was, because as the peace settled, not only did i just feel his arm around me, i FELT this protective incasement from him, his body behind mine and his arm around me, his head above mine. i could almost close my eyes and see it.

Gave me a sense of safety i've never had. Not even with a gun strapped to me (twas for a short bit till this old man yanked my shorts down and tried... ) i dont think i've ever felt that safe in my entire life and good golly twas it peaceful.

Even tho the blistering of the bottom was strange and the attack of emotions afterwards abit scary, the peace afterwards, i'm trying to figure out why this all played out like it did. And more to the point.. why'd i get so upset afterwards, ESPECIALLY when it was so awesome (but strange)?

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RE: What happened? - 8/6/2005 9:36:08 AM

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Drop...release...realization....breaking into new territory...take your pick.
It sounds as though you had a new, intense experience...and it absolutely rocked! Your body and/or psyche may not have really been prepared for the experience, so even though you had a great time while it happened, you went into something like an emotional roller-coaster. Hopefully this was something that your dominant was prepared for and was able to deal with. Congrats on breaking new ground.

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RE: What happened? - 8/6/2005 9:57:12 AM

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sounds like a big time crash. and goodness, that kind of pain can open up all sorts of emotional taps.

your need for His touch, His comfort, is what made me think of a crash. if i am right, you were flying. you were on the top of that adrenaline rush, and then all of a sudden, the stimulation stopped. whoof, i have been known to run around the room and jump up and down, because inside and out, my body can't stop. but it so helps to be "stroked down" slowly.

i see it kind of like Him slowing down the fall so you float back down, instead of crashing at full speed.

but, as opposed to crashing, there have been times when i have "shattered," and curling up in a ball was about the best option. i know what you mean about being sort of enveloped by Him, in that protective, soothing embrace.

Riot, i am so glad you have that safe feeling. crashes happen, weirdness happens. don't worry. just be sure to trust your needs. if you need to be touched, let yourself reach out. unless you have been ordered not to, but i doubt that was the case.

again... whoof! there are times when all i can say to Master is "thank You." over and over again, that's when He knows i am in a certain place.

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RE: What happened? - 8/7/2005 6:51:08 PM

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Same kind of thing happened to me. We were playing kinda rough and he slapped me harder than he'd even come close to before. We;ve been playing with it for a while and I had decided I like it. This was a shock though. I remmeber being shocked and not even moving for a few moments, then the shaking and crying started.

I have never felt that way before. I just wanted ot sob and hold on to him for dear life. It was weird that even though he was the one that infliced it, he was the one I needed to be there and hold until I felt easonlably normal again. And it was the most secure and loved I have ever felt.

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RE: What happened? - 8/7/2005 7:26:00 PM

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When women orgasm it causes hormones to surge and sometimes it's such an intense surge that it can actually made a woman cry uncontrollably or laugh uncontrollably. i don't think there was anything wrong, you just had a major hormone surge combined with an intense adrenaline rush. i've never had the hysterical laughing problem but i have been known to cry uncontrollably in the past. When i do cry i'm not hurt, i'm not upset, i just need to release pent up hormonal emotions.

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RE: What happened? - 8/7/2005 8:15:24 PM

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Thanks everyone, i appreciate the info. i am able to answer his question now. liltx.. that is EXCATLY how i felt too

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RE: What happened? - 8/7/2005 9:10:08 PM

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Most people call it sub drop. If you do a search on google I'm sure you'll get plenty of articles on it. Quite common. It is a feel of detachment due to excess energy release.
Aftercare is essential.

There is also dominant drop. I've seen fewer dominants over the year's go through it...but have seen a few.

Wish I had an article I could paste part of here. Nothing on this pc though.

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