BBWnNC72 -> RE: What was your first session like? (11/19/2007 7:51:31 PM)
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i know the this forum is asking about first times with a Mistress but i would like to share my first time with a "Dom". oh wow, with my very first session, i am lucky to still be around. i was stupid, took a ride on the short bus without my helmet. i would say that my clit thought for me, i was horny and wanted some. Met the guy on here, called himself a Dom, pffffftt, that was BS. But he talked a good game and i was new and stupid. anyways, it went like this: we messaged a while, about 2 weeks, chatted on yahoo and on the phone. this guy is smart, funny, educated, my age, very tall and freaking good looking. me at the time was having some real selfasteem and image problems. i was scared, but this guy seemed really interested in me for me, helped that he said he likes BBW's. He knew i was new to the whole scene, knew this was to be my first session. so anyways, he and i discussed what would happen. he would meet me and i would fallow him to his house, we discussed a partial force fantasy. he told me exactly what he would do, sounded good, sounded fun. he even showed me a picture of a girls butt that had a few marks on it and told me that is all the marks he would put on me. soooo, i meet him and fallow him to his house. he goes inside then i fallow a few minutes later as instructed. as soon as i got inside he forced me to the floor (ok so far), removed my clothes (still good), bound my hands (still good), he told me to stand (now that was a comedy, fat girl trying to stand from the floor with her hands boung behind her) he had to lift me up, put his arm around my middle and picked my ass up!!! this should tell you how strong he is. anyways, he made me walk to the bathroom because i had not earned the right to go to the bedroom, had me bend over the edge of the bathtub (he did put down a towel so it wouldnt be so bad) then spaned me with a belt, OMG, i melted. then he led me to the hallway, pushed my up against the wall and hit me somemore (still doing good here). i was led into the room finally and made to lay down at the foot of the bed across the bottom, he then proceeded to tie my feet spread eagle and my arms above my head, blind fold me and gag me. he played with me a while (still good). not sure how long this went on but a while, then he hit me with something flexable and plastic on my breasts. stung like a bitch, but i liked the sting., the thing is he didnt stop, he would hit me all over, mostly my breasts. i dont know how long this went on for. while doing this he would fuck my mind, saying things like how if i didnt have babies at home he would shackle me in the closet and not let me go, keep me forever and make me his slave and puppy and toilet. by the time he let me up, my arms were numb and achy, hurt to move them down to my sides. he did try to have sex with me, but couldnt get it up and keep it up for some reason. made me suck him. then i noticed my breasts. OMFG, already turning black and blue, had a few blood blisters on them. ok, by the time i got home, it was way bad, i couldnt even wear my seat belt on the trip to my friends house in chapel hill. with in a few days i was so bruised, i couldnt see the color of my breasts or even hug my child. one of the worse things about it was that my teen age daguhter walked in on me the next day and saw, she burst out crying, that was worse then anything that guy could have done to me. now i keep a pic of my breast as a reminder, not that i dont like pain, i love pain, i need pain with my pleasure. but as a reminder of how stupid i was, how i trusted to soon, how i put my life in danger and could have taken my kids mother away from them because i was stupid and horny. i think what made me the maddest, besides my stupidity, was the he lied to me, told me he would do one thing and changed the game on me after i was defenceless. he did get scared i think, took his profile off CM the very next day, would contact me almost every day, i think seeing if i was going to turn him in or send some "good old boys" after him.(i had offers) ~~~~~~ so this is what i learned the hard way, even though my mentor had tried to teach me, 1, never meet and play on the same day. 2. meet in a public place, get a feel for each other 3. when and only when i feel comfy, meet at his house for non play. to see if he is on the up and up 4. never again let myself be bound so thorougly by some one i dont know or havent known for a long time and dont know if i can trust. 5. have a safe something, word, object, something, but i am thinking that in this situation, he wouldnt have paid attention. but on a good note, i am still here, learning, exploring, loving it. i have found a great trainer who is going to grant me a 30 day trial at being His submissive and serving Him, then we will see after that. i have also found a great play partner, friend, confidount, that has taught me the joys of receiving pain and stimulation with out being beaten and bruised and bloodblistered. i do like a few marks and bruises from my trainer, they give me a sence of joy, but i know he did them for all the right reasons and i know He cares deeply for me. when i receive a bruise from Him, i smile and sigh thinking about how i got that mark. (i posted a journal about that in my profile on CM) so that is my first session. please! please! learn from it if you are new. i was once and i still am in a lot of ways, but i learned the hard way and hope others dont have to.
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