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hejira92 -> RE: To all sub/slaves (11/30/2007 3:13:15 PM)
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I find that not only is the reality of belonging to a strong, sadistic, loving Master better than anything I could ever think of (and I have a GREAT imagination), it is more interesting, more meaningful and more fulfilling than I thought it would be.
Another thing that still mystifies me- I had thought on some level that it was still "play"; that I was following His directives because I wanted to please Him. But He recently demonstrated to me that following His orders is not voluntary for me anymore. I mean, He said He would live inside my head, but I didn't take it literally. One of my fantasies was to have someone who really knew me and understood me (and loved me anyway). It's kinda disorienting when you have to face the realization that now someone knows you better than you do AND He owns you and all your responses. I am still wrapping my head around the true depth of His ownership.
I do tell vanilla friends that I thought this kind of love only existed in romance novels. He is the romantic hero-type - tall, muscular, extremely handsome, emotionally mature and emotionally available, secure, baggage-free, talented (rock-n-roll front man) and gainfully employed. Before I met Him, I was sure a man of that description was fictional! And the fact that we fit in the kinky realm as well is just short of a miracle.
So, to answer the question- the reality is much better, more inspirational, challenging, fun, adventurous, sexy, loving and wonderful than anything I had ever imagined.
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