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pandoravampire -> RE: Ever feel like you've had enough? (8/26/2005 6:25:35 PM)
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I certainly experience this from time to time. Usually, its when im feeling 'inside myself' at the beginning. A odd sort of feeling, where im not quite sure whats wrong, but something is. Im then called upon to submit. At these times, i do of course. This will either go brilliantly, where because ive been reluctant, it has a paradoxical effect, and ill go into subspace, or, i cant throw myself into it, and the connection doesnt work. And similar as you describe, because the power is not flowing correctly, it comes to a natural end.
For me, the connection is usually there with my Sir, so this isnt necessarily a problem for us, as next session will be fine. But with a previous partner, i experienced this almost dissassociative state, where im watching what we were doing, rather than being in the moment. Wanting a scene to end, as i could no longer submit naturally, i was forcing it. Faking it, going through the motions of submission and not really feeling it. This turned out to be that the connection was wrong between us, despite having many shared levels to play on - the power exchange just didnt flow often and intensely enough to maintain long sessions. But the short ones were good. I decided for me, i wanted more connection more of the time, so ended it.
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