ghitaPVH
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About 7 years ago, in my first BDSM relationship. This was a common practice. Im still dealing with medical issues from it, and I wouldnt suggest anyone ever going quite to the lengths it was taken in my relationship. My ex not only used the typical "HEY WAKE UP" and keeping me moving and working on tasks, but also kept pumping my body full of stimulants and other narcotics to keep my body from being able to sleep. There are entire months of that relationship that I dont fully remember. The first few days were usually not too bad, Id get tired, and a bit easily emotional, but then my body would kind of find a second wind, and Id almost feel like I was on a sugar high, real jumpy and jittery and such. He'd always keep me moving, dancing for hours each night at clubs, so not only was I exhausted from sleep, every muscle in my body would ache. and the brusies, ugh. everytime Id start to fall asleep, he'd bite me. so id have the huge purple marks on my neck and sholders that hurt every time I moved. which actually helped to keep me awake because everytime Id lean against something they would hurt and Id have to push away. After a few days, the body starts to become very open to suggestion, its pretty easy to do whatever someone tells you, you just cant think clearly enough to make your own choices. During this point in time, its easy for a top to implant some new habits into a person. To tell the truth, the marines use some of these same tactics....often reffered to as brainwashing, but its not quite....more a type of conditioning. After that, if you keep going..your body starts to shut its self down. you forget how to get dressed, to walk, even to eat, unless someone is standing behind you barking very specific orders. your mind shuts down, at this point its not even suggestion, you cant do anything on your own, even when a command is issued, often you flat out cant remember how to lift yout leg off the ground to move so you can obey. its rough. and dangerous. Once I was at this stage, I have no idea what really happened, nor can I tell you what he was doing. All I remember is that all of a sudden he would be gone. and I wouldnt hear from him for weeks. Id be so emotional, and paranoid, and I kind of went though life in a fog, then after a while, when things would start to clear up, he'd show back up and drag me off again. Some of the habits he implanted into my system, ive noticed I still follow. I hate that, and I am trying now to break them. There are certain places, and certain circumstances where all of a sudden my body will involutarily do something he had tought me to do..without even thinking about it Im in a certain position going "what the hell??" and that was seven years ago. I figure one day it will wear off. Sleep is now a big issue for me too. I cant go without a full 8 hours anymore, generally I do better on at least 10. Anything less than 6 and Im weepy and paraniod and angry and often become physically ill if I dont get enough sleep for several days in a row (trust me, having children was a nightmare for me). There are times, even if Ive had my 8 hours every night, that exhaustion comes on very strong, and I can actually feel my body begin to shut down. I start to get ill. Once that begins to happen, the only thing I can do to recover is lock myself in a room and will generally sleep for about 18 hours. No help, no sleep aids, nothing...my body just turns off. As its already been metioned, its pretty hard to put someone through something like that on your own, or your basically going to end up depriving yourself too. my ex had help, there were at least 2 others that I can remember.
Anyway, Ive actually got to log off now, I didnt mean to spend this much time on here this morning, my UMs are standing around waiting to leave for the park...but it was a topic that jumped out at me and I just had to answer. If youd like to ask any other specif questions Id be happy to answer them on cmail on the other side.
ghita~
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