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Elorin -> RE: A Question for Masochists (1/26/2008 1:24:38 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Shammon5
(1) When you are subjected to sensations that could be described as "painful," do you feel them as "pain" or as "pleasure." Does it "hurt" or does it feel good like a massage or something?
I do not identify as a masochist, however sometimes I experience a sensation as pain and sometimes as pleasure. And sometimes, it hurts but in a good hurt kind of way like a massage. For instance, I enjoy play piercing. Sometimes, after the first needle, each needle insertion is as erotic as being fucked to me. Sometimes, it just hurts worse and worse and worse and I become more and more tense and anxious as the piercing increases, and finally I can't handle the pain anymore. And sometimes I flinch with the pain and but love it and am ready for more. Notice, in the first kind of situation I may not even notice how many times I'm pierced. In the second, I'm counting the piercings and dreading each one, and in the third I'm aware of each piercing and looking forward to each one. All because I have processed the pain differently for some reason.
I know factors that change my ability to process pain include ambient temperature (if I feel cold I can't handle as much pain or intensity), audience (a couple of appreciative onlookers trigger my exhibitionist streak and I can tolerate more pain, but too many onlookers or people who are commenting loudly and pull me out of my headspace can result in me tolerating less pain), how many people are at an event, the ambiance of the event (casual, high fetish, high protocol, formal, kink focused or sex focused or lots of people playing or few people playing, mostly socializing or mostly play, etc), and the mood of my relationship at the time. When we are fighting I can take much less pain than when we are cuddly and happy. I can take more pain when I am feeling a high stimulation of our D/s dynamic than when we have been vanilla boyfriend/girlfriendish all week.
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(2) To the submissives/slaves, does the fact that you are submitting make pain an enjoyable experience, or the sensations themselves?
I submit to pain that I absolutely despise, and neither the pain as an experience overall nor the sensation is pleasurable. However, I find that it drives me deeper into submission and that dynamic is pleasurable/positive for me. Sometimes feeling deeply submissive means I can tolerate far more pain than normal, whether I'm processing it as pleasure, pleasurable pain, or just fucking ow, simply because I'm getting such a feeling of fulfillment from being his victim because he is a sadist, serving him by providing him with someone to hurt. Being submissive makes me willing to endure the experience, but doesn't necessarily make the experience enjoyable.
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