subbella -> Closing the Door (9/7/2005 10:17:56 PM)
Closing the Door
We spoke and realized we had nothing left to say. The door is closed on friendship on our relationship on a time in both our lives that was special for what it was. She wishes him to be happy and he does the same for her and she has to do what is best for her to keep him from taking up too much space in her mind. She doesn't want to be angry or sad or resentful for anything that transpired between them she just wants him to know that he is not welcome in her life as her Master or as a friend. But as a special memory that she will cherish. she hopes he finds happiness and learns something from all of this about women and how they deserve to be treated as opposed to how he treats them just as she has learned a lot about trust and love and relationships. Maybe a new Dom will enter her life someday but perhaps that door is closed as well. But she does know that sometimes when a door is closed somewhere a window is open for new experiences and new friendships to emerge. So with a fond farewell she says goodbye to him and now she can embrace her freedom so with a deep breath and her fingers crossed she faces a brand new world and a chance to perhaps even love again.
dommeenik -> RE: Closing the Door (9/8/2005 9:37:22 AM)
good luck to you girl, i understand you very well...been there done that.... the japanese have the same word for dissadvantage and apportunety you will find your way again
subbella -> RE: Closing the Door (9/8/2005 5:38:31 PM)
Thank you.
BalletBob -> RE: Closing the Door (9/8/2005 5:54:25 PM)
Hi Subbella. I lost my MADAM, and do understand some of what your going through, though it wasn't as close and personal as yours. I am glad my wife (of 30 years) is always here with me, not matter what, and hope that you too can find someone, who you can also depend on. Take care and Good Luck, BalletBob
subbella -> RE: Closing the Door (9/9/2005 12:00:32 AM)
Ballet Bob -- my heart goes out to you. Life goes on, and changes may be painful, but I have accepted that what we once shared cannot be revisited. We both have changed too much, and unfortunately, we have discovered that our needs and desires are quite different now. I will miss him and the memories, but there are new adventures awaiting, and new alliances to be formed. I hope that you will look inside yourself and be happy!