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Missed the boat.... but can still swim! - 2/10/2008 9:21:21 PM

atljerbear35

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Hello to A/all, I'm Jerry, a new member. I was just thinking about how radically different my life would be today if I'd had the resources of the internet (and specifically this site!) when I was a much younger man. I've given myself the "V-8" slap in the forehead more times than I can count over the past few years, whenever I think of all the opportunities I've missed, and the compromises I've made vis-a-vis alternative lifestyles. I've hidden in the shadows most of my life, fearful of discovery by the vanilla nation, afraid to seek out those who also prefer or practice alternative lifestyles, and ignorant of how to go about it if I could. Those few relationships where I/we dared to experiment even a little were fraught with paranoia and distrust, and ever fearful of exposure.

Well, I can't change the past- merely regret it- but I can do something about the future. I've been married for nearly 19 years to a wonderful, but very vanilla wife, and have lived with the consequences of my decision ever since. I "came out" to my wife several years ago, and after the anger and tears, we briefly experimented with a D/s lifestyle marriage- which failed utterly. She is what she is, I am what I am, and though we still love each other deeply, I have to explore this area of myself without her. She doesn't like it, doesn't approve of it, but has learned to accept that this is as much a part of me as any other part of me that she does like.

I've been VERY impressed by this site so far- the sheer number of Dominant Women seeking real-life relationships and not simply clients for a professional enterprise is amazing- and very encouraging. If I were single today, THIS is where I'd be seeking my soulmate, my Goddess.

I look forward to getting to know the people here, and with luck, finding real-time friends and teachers who can help me to grow in this lifestyle, and share the journey as well.

Peace and Love-

Jerry