burningdesires47 -> RE: First time in Subspace? (2/11/2008 8:37:16 AM)
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first "date" with a guy I'd been interested in for a bit... It was full of "Sir"s and "girl"s and we went to my car to "chat" a bit more privately and the next thing I REALLY remember clearly is him telling me I needed to calm down and me being unable to really speak (which was about 45 min-and hour later). After he left I was so completely confused and relieved and excited and elated and floaty and wobbly and tearful inside... I cried for like 15 minutes, and that crash was soooooo hard. I had to call and talk to someone or I thought I was going to totally lose my mind, and I was afraid if I called HIM to talk about it I was just going to lose the tenuous grip on reality I'd gained... I was SO glad I'd heard about subpsace literally THE DAY before (I had known of it's existence, I'd known subs who got "high" on the submission, but I didn't know what it was called and wasn't even sure if I WAS a sub let alone if I could do that....). If I hadn't known what was going on, I would have totally freaked. To his credit, I was BEHAVING a lot calmer than I felt, and he thought I was a bit better off than I was. *I* thought I was too til he pulled out of the parking lot. But I refused to call him back because he had more important things to take care of. I'm grateful for the experience, but it was definitely a scary drive home.
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