SubmissiveAK
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Joined: 3/5/2007 Status: offline
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In short, Yes. Ok, SubmissiveAK. I just perved your profile. You're very young. In a very isolated part of the world which, even in your own words, has made it difficult to find partners, therefore, your actual experiences with BDSM have been extremely limited. AND, you have plenty going on which suggests there are quite a few things you would do, anyway, even if brought about under hynosis. So, I'm curious. Could you be more specific about these 3 experiences you've had. Like, which licensed hypnotist did you see? Was it in a BDSM context or in relations to "other" issues you are coming to terms with? What did they make you do you wouldn't have already done in regards to BDSM? I need something more here before your input will become credible to me. Thanks for perving my profile My first experiences with D/s began with hypnosis, roughly two and a half years ago. Living in AK makes it harder to find someone to tie me up and spank me silly, but the internet opens wide possibilities with what is esentially a non-physical event. I can't really explain what it was like unless you've experienced it, and there is nothing I can say to "prove" anything so read it as you will. I'm trying to help you here in one of the few fields I have experience. I have worked with two trained hypnotherapists, neither of which were good enough/compatable enough to work with me on a deep level. I do not know whether it is respectful of them for me to mention names. One of the three people I talked of claims to have been trancing for two decades, and I believe her. I know that she worked with me to trance on a deeper level, and I think she worked with me to overcome my fears of trusting/letting go in trance. I think she also helped me get to the point that I forget my trances. I know that somewhere, my mind "knows" what happened but I cant recall it. It doesn't bother me as much as you think it would, and that might be due to trance itself. Her skills inspire a level of fear (and desire) that I know firsthand to be well-deserved. Another was not as experienced, but she was a savant when it came to NLP. I still dont quite understand it (NLP always knocks me on my ass) but just by talking she somehow created or opened desires inside me. Sexual desires, paticularly bi-sexuality (I used to be quite prudish). I remember only being attracted to women, I remember it, but now its hard to imagine being like that. After talking with her I found myself "playing allong" for a time... only to find the more I resisted the idea (of fellatio/etc) the stronger the desire became, and the more real. I'm ashamed to say it but there are times its become so overwhelming that I have litterally writhed and moaned just from errant thoughts. Now I can't say if I just wasn't bisexual beforehand or if its something she opened up within me but its still very real. She has passed away now, but I still feel the trap she laid for me and do still struggle with it at times. The third was a hypnodomme and though I knew the least about her personally, she had the most profound effect on me personally. I don't believe I would be involved in D/s if I hadn't met her (or at least not yet). I asked her to help me understand what it was to be submissive. She had a way of stealth trancing (putting someone into trance without them realizing it) and there was good chemistry between us. She proceeded to try and mould me into a (real) slave, with the goal of finding me an owner eventually. Granted I dismissed it then, and I didn't understand what being a slave meant (which caused big problems) but now I fantasize about it. I don't want to aire bad laundry, but suffice to say I became extremely dependent on her, and was eventually dropped alltogether. Nobody has ever been closer to me, had such a power over me (emotionally) or been trusted so deeply (by myself). It wasn't easy to get over her, and I still miss it Her times. Now I know I can't prove any of this to you. For all you know I'm just a some wanker with wet dreams All I can do is give my word on it. Take it as you will.
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