tsatske -> RE: Jonesing? (2/19/2008 8:00:33 AM)
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At some point towards the end of my relationship with my last Master, we quit having sex. And, by sex, I mean, I quit getting beaten. Or, well, anything else. Something happened in our relationship, to the way he saw me as a person, that caused him, well, to continue to love me, but no longer sexually, at all. When we finally broke up, we remained, and still are, very good friends. I used to tease him that I was the only woman on the planet he wouldn't fuck. Anyway, during that difficult time, before he found the nerve to release me, he kept making excuses. And, well, when I am owned, I trust my Master. That is just the way it works. So I believed him - he was just tired, just busy, just didn't have time, ect. ect. I felt strongly that waiting with patience, without complaint, was part of my duty as a slave. But, yes, I missed it. My current Master understands some very basic things about me, which my last Master found unacceptable. These were, in fact, the things that caused our breakup. I am mentally ill. The simple fact is, when the demons get to loud - well, being beaten, and beaten well, shuts them up. smoothes out my brain waves. Makes the world a calm, rational place in which I can live comfortably inside my own skin. This past weekend, I woke up sat. morning and simply asked to be hurt. Master beat me. He said, later, that he looked at me when I asked, and decided that it couldn't wait till that night. Thank God for a Master who understands.
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