tsatske
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I am a slave. That is my personality, about that there has never been any doubt, to me. However, I always said I had no interest in micromanagment. If micromangement was one of the choices on the interest survey, Master would have probably checked it off very high, and I can't help but wonder if I would have written him.
He told me in the beginning that this was what He wanted. He said, however - "I will never force anything on you. But I will keep trying to seduce you into my lifestyle. And I will keep asking." And I laughed at him. Not for the reason He probably thought - not because I thought no one could seduce me to micromanagement. But because I know me, and I knew, if I fell in love with him, I would want to give him anything he wanted.
And I did fall in love. And, I do want to give him whatever he wants. But, in addition to that, I have to say, I love this lifestyle, and I love the life Master has given me. I have been owned before, and ritual and kink is more of a part of our daily lives, and there are more constant reminders that I am, indeed, his slave, than in any relationship I have ever been in.
As a micromanaged slave, I did not feel attacked by Lady Heather's post at all. What I read is that there are these idiots who keep writing her, who say they want to be micromanged, but when she tries to get them to explore what that means to them, they just talk in mindless circles till you want to blow out either your brains or theirs. (pick theirs. It will do more to improve the planet overall.) It is a hot word for them, but being forced to think it through would disturb the fantasy.
Throughout our time negotiating the early stages of this relationship, the same conversation kept coming up, about different things. I would say, "What about X? How much control do you want of X? I really don't think I can give up control of that, Sir." And he would say, " I want control of it all. When you are ready to give me that control, I will make the decisions, and you will do what I tell you to." And my breathing would change, looking into his eyes, and my mind would change, and I would go instantly from 'I can't give up control of X' to 'Please give me that life.' And he has.
Are you willing to be micromanaged? I am a micromanaged slave, and I love my life, and I love the rhythm of my days. It is not for everyone, but I am constantly surprised how happy it makes me.
Are you willing to ask when to poop and be refused? (this came from an LA response I think and I spit coffee on that one) Well, I do ask for permission to go to the bathroom, and I have been told no before. However - I ask for permission when we are together. If I am in the other town with my adult children or family, if I am out without him, while he is at work, ect; I don't wait, I just go. If we are together in the house and he is busy - in the garage, on the phone, ect - I just go. If we are in vanilla public, I try to catch his eye and say 'I'm going to the bathroom.' and wait for his nod - but, that doesn't always work, in which case, I just go. There is some logic to be applied here.
Are you willing to turn over all your assets? Absolutely. Of course, I have none. Master provides for all my needs. I used to have a job, which provided me with my own money. Not much of it, granted - it's a disgrace what Americans pay the people who take care of their 'most treasured assets', but still, it was mine. Then Master got me knocked up, and, apparently, if you get pregnant at 40 and diabetic, you should just pack a sleeping bag and go live in your doctors waiting room. And my boss got rather tired of THAT, so, I am on permanent leave. (permanent, because in the mean time, I moved a couple hundred miles to Master.) So now all my money is Master's. Oh, well.
Master does understand what 'all my needs' entails. For instance, he understands that I need to care for my adult, mildly special needs children. So, I still pay the rent on my apartment there, even though I am there once a week or less, and even then, I am there to help them. He bought me a car for my birthday specifically so I could give my car to one of my sons when he gets his license. That didn't work out, my son does not have his license yet and last weekend the car seized up and died a permanent death. Master immediately began cruising the Internet for appropriately priced cars to buy for the son in question.
Are you willing to be told when and how much time you can spend with family? Master understands my needs in this regard and takes them into question. He insists that I spend far more time there then I would if left to my own devices.
Are you willing to forego any of your happiness for a D? This question confused me a little. Then I realized it was aimed at the above mentioned idiots. <grin>. Anyway, the real answer is complex. At any given time, on any given issue, the answer is yes, even if there are quite alot of such issues that need that answer. Overall, long term - everyone needs their relationships to be fulfilling. So, if you are constantly unhappy, and for the long term, then it is time to change something.
Are you willing to be told when to speak and when not, what to say and what not to say? Yes. Yes, but - I would not have selected a Mater who did not like ME as a PERSON, and therefore enjoy what makes me ME. I would never have selected a Master who did not want to hear from me. But if it is necessary to make rules about not speaking at certain times, in certain ways, in certain places, maybe even on certain topics, (though that one is a bit harder to imagine) but, still, if such rules are made, I am fine with them.
Are you willing to give over your right to independent thinking? As someone said, I do not understand how to do that. My willingness is not at issue here. I would willingly give up my right to have bodily functions, to fart, to breathe- but I don't know how to stop doing those things. Ditto for thinking. 'I think, therefore I am.' (To be is to do. To do is to be. Do Be Do Be Do Be Do.)
Are you willing to be told who to vote for, what to wear, what to eat and when, have your food ordered for you? The voting one had a recent thread on here, and it was fascinating. The vast majority of Masters said they would never tell their slaves how to vote, the vast majority of slaves said, 'absolutely yes, without problem.' As it is also for me.
As to the others, yes. He chooses my clothes every day. If we are in a hurry and he tells me to just go get dressed (which is not an often thing), I put on clothes then come to him for his approval. He watches what I eat, and when I take my sugar, and my sugar readings, like a hawk. He paid for his last slave to be on nutra-system, specifically so he could control all she ate, even when she was not with him.
Master came to my city to meet me for our first date. He asked me to pick a restaurant, since I knew the city better than he. I purposely chose a restaurant with 'family style' ordering so that he would have to order for me. <grin>
Are you willing to be used by whom ever She chooses, when and how? We have not done this yet, I do not know how Master feels about sharing the slave, but he knows how I feel about it. I have no desire or need to be with or play with any other man (women are a different issue...), but I will be happy to play with anyone he wishes me to. Not a problem.
Before I met him, I think my main objection to micromanagement was, I could not imagine anyone wanting to devote that kind of time to managing a sub. I thought, eventually, you will just want to strangle her. I am constantly amazed at the amount of time and attention Master is willing to devote to this slaves upkeep. None the less, your questions are good ones, and when the wankers write you with 'please control everything...', you should require them to fill out such a survey. Micromanagment is not for everyone, and it requires a lot of thought, IMO.
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