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stella41b -> RE: Am I allowed to love my Master? (3/9/2008 3:17:33 PM)
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I'd say go for it, tell him (not us) and show him.
What's wrong with being young? Everyone has been young in their lives, we've all been there where you are, we've all been inexperienced, we've all wanted to learn, we've all made our mistakes, been stupid, had our hearts broken, our egos bruised, been fooled and deceived but many of us have also LIVED as opposed to existed, we've found happiness, love, knowledge, experience, and all what life has to offer.
You got a great attitude, be yourself, be open, be honest, and communicate. Take each day as it comes, live for the moment, and love people in the way you feel you want to love them.
Don't get hung up over what love is - love is a feeling which is shared between two human beings and hopefully is reciprocated - it doesn't matter whether it's between a mother and child, a father and mother, high school friends, two lovers, an elderly couple with 45 years of marriage behind them, or even a love of people - it's still love.
What is true love? True love is when you love someone who loves you back and you both accept, understand, trust and love each other for who you really are. It's not necessarily permanent except for the fools who expect it to be and to come with a guarantee, but it's something you feel in your heart and you know it's love, and it's terribly painful when it ends or when it isn't given back.
Love is hard to define but to me it's got a lot to do with acceptance, feeling, honesty, openness and expression.
If you're not sure whether it's love or not then maybe it isn't and is probably infatuation or something close like admiration and you need to give it more time. Love cannot be created, imagined, forced, or faked, and don't let people try and talk you out of your own definition of love.
Quite often they don't know, they don't know you, they don't know what lies in your heart, your feelings. Most people's definition of love is quite narrow, it's the erotic love of desire and passion, and when you go and ask them you usually only get their definition of what they perceive to be love. But love can take as many forms as there are relationships between people, some deny their own feelings, often because they want to find a reason for love, and some wouldn't recognize love even if it hit them with the force of a Mack truck. This is why sadly there's not enough love in this world and why many people fail to find true love.
Love is about trying, failing, making mistakes, sharing, those tender moments, those feelings of loneliness, insecurity, those giddy heady days where the world becomes heaven, it's about heartaches, splitting up, crying on a best friend's shoulder, shouting out 'I hate you you ba$tard!', but it's also finding someone, falling in love, experiencing love all over again as if it was new, the intimacy, the passion, the long conversations into the early hours of the morning over coffee about something silly..
.. it's about being all sentimental, dreamy-eyed and soppy like a 15 year old...
.. it's about being yourself, being happy, and sharing who you are inside intimately with another person.
Life is about trial and error. Who cares if he's the right one or not? There's a lot of lonely people out there who are alone because they've never met the right one, as if you're going to meet a Dom one day with 'YOUR RIGHT ONE' written across his forehead.
It only matters that you're happy with him and he's happy with you and your feelings are mutual. Live for the moment, take each day as it comes, be happy together because let's face it, you're looking for positives here - if the relationship ends, as it might, at least you'll have happy memories to look back on, and you never know, he'll have made you a better female submissive for the next Dom and you will ahve made him a better Dom for the next submissive.
As for the feelings of heartache, loss, rejection, sadness, you just need a few very close friends who you can be yourself with, share yourself with and say absolutely anything with. Then when it does fall apart you can get the girls round, and decide whether you want to get blind drunk, bitch about men, go out on the pull, discuss joining a convent, spend time in a nightclub or a disco dancing round your handbags, whatever, but at least you'll have a support network. What have you got to lose?
Life is short and is meant to be lived. Living surely means being yourself openly, honestly and freely with people, being responsible, and taking every opportunity there is to have fun, be happy and to love and be loved and for living the way you want to live.
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