tsatske
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Joined: 3/9/2007 From: Louisville, KY Status: offline
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I am of course not sure, but I think the OP meant ways that we would like to serve that don't happen to fit into our relationship. With my last owner, my contract actually addressed the fact that he was not fond of service, which often left me wanting. So kneeling to bring him a drink - hell, even bringing him his drink - was not something I got to do often. One of the things that blows me away is when Master allows me to worship his feet, because attempts made at this in my last relationship led to being looked at in that way - that way that says, 'OMG, you really are a freak, aren't you' - and I mean that in not a good way. I have never seen Master look at me that way, and he has explored a few very dark places with me. He has been known to refuse to allow certain types of service, certain sex acts, or to reverse certain rules and not allow me to follow them, when he has a reason, usually health related. I am always frustrated by those. I know how much he loves heels, for instance. On several occasions, (I am diabetic) the pediatrist has ordered me into 'appropriate diabetic shoes' for a week, or two, or three. (My podiatrist knows damn well better than to try to order me NOT to wear Master's heels). I am always extremely frustrated by that, and similar restrictions on the service I can give him.
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