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daddyncherry -> RE: Your first Visit (3/18/2008 9:35:50 PM)
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OOSH our first meeting...damn...intense was how i felt and like i would just explode, implode or come generally unglued.
It was a spur of the moment decision to meet the day we did....and i was going through ALOT of crap in my world at the time, and i was certain that He wouldn't want to be with me...that somehow i wouldn't translate as well as my pics in real life. Sooo i intentionally tried to sabbotage it, cause i just knew i wasn't worthy of him.
We were to meet at a Starbucks and i primped for about an hour or so and dressed all in black (cause i knew he was partial to lighter colors)...i didn't wanna look bad, but i was trying to chase him off, cause i was sooo petrified of not being good enough and him eventually finding out, so sooner was better than later.
i called him on the way over and found out that we were both arriving early (UGH) sooo i jetted down an alley to avoid bumping right into him, and got there before him. WHEW! i quickly ordered my coffee so that he wouldn't feel obligated to buy one for me, thinking he could see me, and leave and not have to actually meet me face to face.
As i was getting my coffee all fixed up he walked in, walked over to me and whispered in my ear "You look waay better than in your pictures!" (whew, whew, oh fuck whew)
We went outside to chat and i was totally a wreck. i hadn't been on a date in about 10 years and never with someone i met online, never with a Dominant.....i just kept staring at him, his face,his mouth as he spoke and i couldn't believe it. It was sooo surreal.
As the night went on, he whispered in my ear to comfort me with hearing him in my ear the way i had on the phone....he also leaned his chest into my back (*sigh*)..he pulled my chair close up to him, pulled me in between his legs as we talked and generally controlled it all,even though he allowed me to go on with verbal diareah.
As we were parting he pinned me against the wall, kinda blocked me in, and kissed me...i didn't think that would happen........OOSH i almost fainted.....we kissed for a long time up against the wall.
He asked if i was going to walk him to his car,and i said no, (knowing deep inside that if i did that somehow i'd end up with his big penis in my mouth [:)])
Afterwards he told me that he approved of me, and when i balked that i'd been all covered up he reminded me of how he had essentially touched every part of me....my face, my thighs, my ass, my arms, grazing my breasts....i hadn't even noticed, but he had in fact touched me almost everywhere, smoothly, softly and not in a lecherous way.
Soooo yeah, adrenaline???? that's a way to put it....but that'sjust the tip of the ice berg.
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