pupofMoGa -> RE: Guilt - does it feel good to you? (4/5/2008 7:00:33 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Mistress I don't feel guilty. What I feel when I do get to that place is Gratefulness and exhilaration. I am grateful to my sub for allowing me to use him in the way that makes me happy, and in turn makes him happy as well. I am exhilarated because I have this vast amount of power, that he has given to me. When I see him lying there, looking so innocent and pure, so much like a boy, but responding to me as only a man can do, I am also filled with love for him. I want to hurt him in such a good way, that he just can't distinguish between the pain and pleasure. When he is gagged, and he sees me light a candle, or get a knife out, his eyes grow huge, but the trust is there and he knows that no matter what implement I use, I would never damage him. I took his virginity, I do not feel guilty about that, because he offered it to me. I had a choice. I could have said no, come back when you have at least had sex with someone. But I didn't want to. I was proud to be his first. I didn't "play" with him the first time we had sex, it was very vanilla. I didn't want his first time to be anything that involved wiitwd. No regrets, no guilt. Just love and respect to a boy, who became a man in my loving embrace. Good question, AAkasha! MoGa AWWWWWW MISTRESS!!!!!!! I love You so much!!!!!!! I love surrendering to You and providing You the power You love so much. I know how much You love to hurt me when i am laying there, totally at Your mercy. The training You have provided me in thinking that pain is pleasure and pleasure is pain, there is no difference, has been the best thing ever. I couldn't imagine feeling pain now in any other way, it would be so alien now. I don't think that heaven could be any better than when i am with You. I love that You withheld introducing wiitwd when we first had sex. I didnt understand why at first, but i understood afterwards. Now i know how much i love the things that we do and could never settle for just vanilla. Thank You Mistress for helping turn this boy into the man You see today. You are everything to me. You are my life and my soul. -pup
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