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Lulabelle -> Hello (an inspired start!) (10/1/2005 1:37:23 PM)
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Hello everyone,
I recently joined this site, not with the intention of meeting anyone, but to learn and understand both myself and other Doms, subs and switches more. I've been interested in BDSM and D/s relationships for a fair few years now and have dabbled in a few, but I need to discover myself, and of course any partners.
For many years I considered myself totally submissive, away from sex I am confident, professional, assured... but once it comes down to the nitty gritty I've always felt compelled to be taken charge of. I love having control taken away from me, I don't perceive it as weak, in fact quite the opposite. The trust that is needed to totally give yourself up to another person is so difficult for anyone away from a D/s relationship to comprehend.
Then I began to change, little things I wanted to take over, not all the time but just occassionally I wanted to be the one on top so to speak. I administered a few spankings and loved it, and of course having been on the receiving end so many times you can appreciate it so much better. Whilst I still want a dominant partner I also discovered a big need to have a submissive partner too. Having my cake and eating it, and why not? However, making the jump is not so easy, switching from one role with one person to another with somebody else has come hard, very hard, and thus I find myself here.
I may post quite infrequently, but I plan on reading through often and learning about others and seeing if any of my experiences are comparable. I would like to know if it is normal to feel like I do, or whether I need to make a decision to stick with being either dominant or submissive.
Please forgive my ramblings, and thank you for taking the time to read.
Lulabelle
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