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HailKingArthur -> College Gradute...Black sheep (4/7/2008 9:57:36 PM)
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I struggled with weight management for years, so, the natural neuroses developed. I never fancied myself as an object of lust because of my poor self image...a VERY common tale, i know. If i sound self-important, trust me, I'm not. If the ordeal has taught me anything, it is humility and accountability. Anyway, despite my own issues with seeing anything in myself, relationships and sex have been a priority since i can remember. The first "no you hang up...no YOU hang up" relationships happened in high school: based less on attraction and more on two codependents pooling their insecurities. They were rewarding, though. Insecure, damaged and dejected people are usually the most solid. I learned how to conduct myself in a relationship, how to give head, etc.
Since those haphazard affairs, my kinks and quirks developed the more my partners multiplied and the more i witnessed staggering sexual repression in most young women. I suppose a way to explain why I'M dom is to explain how much "hang ups" and repression turn me off. What starts with the sentiment "why can't i lick your ass? It's only a half inch away from what i lick all the time!" quickly becomes a desire to dilate and stretch. The correlation is probably with inhibition and how, to me, the more extreme types of anal play represent letting them go.
It is still about passion and pleasure and communication as most people in this culture understand. When there is trust and connection, degrading becomes sacred. I love it. I'm a little young to love it, from the looks of it. these women have no idea what they want or who they are sexually. It is an alienating existence. Like minded partners... that is what i seek. Hello all. thanks for reading.
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