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charmdpetKeira -> When we’re done pointing fingers (4/11/2008 6:51:22 PM)
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Hello, my name is, irrelevant. I have come here today, to talk to those of you who may not know of people like me.
I thought it might be useful for those who don’t know, or pay attention to my kind, because the way things are going, it won’t be long before many of you, or your loved ones, will be forced to be another me.
What am I? I am one of the living to exist, crew. I work my ass off, to get absolutely nowhere. I’m just a little above the bottom, in that I have a full time job, but I don’t make enough money to pay all of the bills by myself. And while the checks for $14+ a wk (for 2 kids) from the ex, are much appreciated, they don’t quite put me over the top; if ya know what I mean.
To put it in a better perspective, my income taxes were some ridiculously low amount, around $20-$40, and I got a return for a little over $7000.
Don’t get too excited, it all went to bills and car payments, so the kids and I can have a place to live, and I can have a vehicle to go to work, to do it all over again for another year.
I’m not complaining, I know when it became my fault, and where I should have done better. I have hopes that in a few years, when I will be able to put more focus on me again; I will be able to increase my abilities toward being productive; at least enough to give my kids a hand up.
My concern is; it won’t matter.
At one point I blamed much of my situation on my parents; after I stopped blaming myself for “making” them act the way they did. I realize now, their behavior was just a by product of the times. Everything else, just stuff that happens when we don’t pay attention.
I used to blame the public school I attended, for not being able to teach me. That is, after I stopped believing their assumptions, that there is something wrong with my ability to learn. Now I realize, they are only a by product of the rules and restrictions placed on them.
The rest of my immediate family is doing pretty well, according to society’s standards. They actually have to pay taxes. Thing is, I don’t really see how they are better off. Sure, they get to go places, buy things, and what not, but their race really isn’t any different then mine, with the exception of them having to run faster; and when its over, we’ll all end up in the same place.
The reason I wrote this, is because I’ve been sitting here wondering who I should vote for; if I should vote; and if not, then what; because I can’t ignore the fact that something needs to be done.
I just can’t see the point of trying to decide which kind of manure is best, when, on our present course, all we will be planting, is gardens of stone.
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