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Thank you for responding, FC,
I was hoping the title chosen for the thread, would ease some of the insinuation, that I personally know, or have some sort of power over what is going on. I assure you; I don’t.
I never meant to imply that I know anything. The truth is, I feel as though, I know nothing, and it has been a constant theme throughout my life. So much so, that when I was told I had passed the NH, G.E.D “to perform as effectively in the workplace or in higher education as the top 3% of traditional high school graduates”, I needed a friend explain to me, exactly what that meant. For some reason, my mind automatically assumes; it must have been graded on a bell curve, or they got my scores mixed up with someone else’s.
No matter how hard I try to fit in, whether it is by going with the flow, or being myself; I have never belonged. Not even in my own family.
I claim to be nothing more then a messenger of balance. I started saying this simply because, I have always played “the middle man”; I have a odd aptitude for a sense of balance, and the only thing that I have ever been told I do well, that I can actually get a sense of what is meant by it, is write.
More recently, I realized my birth time and date are within seconds of what I would call a numerical model of balance connected to balance, by infinity 6 9/8/69. (Actual time 5:59.)
There is a shit load of other crazy little coincidences I could list, but I think I would only bore everyone, so I’ll refrain.
As I said before, I do not blame anyone for not believing, I was living it and still didn’t believe. Then I asked for something, anything, to clue me in as to whether or not I was making any sense in where I thought I was heading, and the ideas I have been translating on these boards.
On 3/6/08, two weeks before Easter Sunday, while riding in the car with my oldest son; I happen to notice about 3 or 4 fairly thick streams of sunlight coming down from the sky, (nothing unusual). I had followed the streams back up to the sun, and saw it was completely covered by a very dark storm cloud. About a foot, or two (earth perception), off to the right, was an even bigger, dark storm cloud.
I was driving, so I looked back down at the road, and then up at the cloud again. The cloud over the sun, had moved to the left, reveling about 2-3in of the sun. Sitting nestled in the larger cloud, that then looked, lined in silver, at approximately a 45% degree angle, above and slightly behind the sun; was a city of rectangular buildings, that shown, lined in gold, surrounded by a castle wall. There appeared to be windows in the buildings; longish rectangles, that looked black against the brightness.
I looked back down at the road, thinking, there is no way, I just saw what I think I did.
My son had also been looking up, and just as I finish my thought, that it must be true; I am going crazy, he said, “Mom, did you see that castle?”
All I could say was “yes, I did ….”
I looked back up; the sun was even more exposed, and the city was starting to fade into the cloud. Then suddenly the brightness over took it, and it washed away in the cloud.
I am hoping that sharing this might help some see, why I felt I must share what I’ve been feeling. As of yet, I have not heard of a story where someone was shown a “promised land”, and was not able to go there, unless they did not do as they were instructed.
I once made the statement here, that man is destroying faith; that was an inaccurate statement. Faith is being destroyed, but the act is being conducted by the slaves of Satan, the destroyer, and they do it, by convincing people to snub their own flames, with all the lies they spread. Those homeless you see on the street that refuse to do anything for themselves; that’s them. That is what is happening to those who are being sent to fight in Iraq. They are creating an army of empty (soulless), soldiers. I finally figured out why watching that marine tossing the puppy bothered me so much; he has become “a bottomless pit”. That, and I have an immense fear of “falling”.
I thought it was strange that so many would admire the very thing that wishes to destroy them, and then I realized, it is because they are what those people were designed to be; the leaders of this world; but it seems many have been convinced, they are unfit for the job. (I can relate to that.)
The world is not ending, it is changing; all I meant to ask for, is for you to have faith in yourselves; for the leaders to lead, and the followers to follow them, so that they do not inadvertently follow the “pied piper”, into oblivion.
As for what will happen to me, I am still pretty much in the dark about that. I feel as though I am becoming a leaper amongst the self proclaimed “freaks”, and it’s not really a happy place to be. At the same time, I feel exausted; yet, as tired as I am, I don’t have it in me to give up, either.
Even more troubling, I am unsure of what will happen to my kids; if what I say is correct. I sense the two youngest will be staying here; they were not with me to see the city, and they are strongly connected to their father. I don’t think he would fair well, without them. And my oldest did not actually see the city, only the castle wall that surrounded it.
I am not concerned about many that post here, their own convictions and common sense will help them get through the things I precieve to be comming. Its just that you guys are the first people I've ran across in my time here, that actually made sense to me, and it seemed to me, if I were not suposed to tell you, there was no one else to tell.
I am sorry for screaming in your ears; it is my fear for those who will follow the wrong path, which makes me act so.
My best,
k
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