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Kirren -> RE: How much does your culture control your choices in the lifestyle ? (5/6/2008 7:34:23 AM)
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I was raised Roman Catholic, I am a 1/4 each Shawnee Indian, German, Italian, and Scottish. So yeah, Im a mutt. But the Catholic part influenced Me the most. I grew up in a very female Dominant home, but mainly because My mother is insane, and she kept us all under lock and key and pop was too drunk to give a damn...
When I started out learning about sex, I felt I was always doing something wrong, or that it was a sin, or what have you. As I got older, I realized it was a natural progression, and found that in most of My behaviors I was extreamly submissive due to the way I was raised. I had serious fears of confronting people about what I felt or how they effected Me.
By the time I was in My early 20's I realized that I wanted control and I wanted power...but I still had alot to over come and to learn...so I began to journey into the life style.
I dont think that My immediate area has a great deal to do with what I do D/s wise with kitten or with Damien... I do what I want to do and just dont care for what others say and baiscally disregard the general population in this area. I dont feel as if My surroundings make up My culture...but more that I am culture unto Myself with in My surroundings. I set My own pace, I make My own rules, and I do what I think is right, fair or decent in any given situation.
When it comes to how I work around the surroundings, I make simple rules for kitten when we are in public...walk behind Me or beside Me...do not walk in front of Me. Yes Ma'am No Ma'am...and thats that. Yes, I get strange looks, but as I said, I dont feel as if these people in this place, which is a culture based on Southern Baptist beliefes, influence who I am or what I do. When I realized how the church, My mother and what ever else I was allowing to influence Me was doing so in a manner that I did not feel was what I wanted to be, I changed it over and took charge based on what I wanted and what I needed and what I wanted to be.
Hope that makes sense.
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