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stableboy10 -> Delights and Dilemmas (10/23/2005 7:14:40 PM)
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The delights and dilemmas of BDSM
Hi
I haven't ever participated online in this manner, so I hope that my effort will be received patiently. I have had now several years experience with BDSM, after being interested most of my adult life. Many years ago, I had a series of experiences with four professional domintrix. I remember each one very well! Since my divorce (very amicable - not related to this lifestyle at all) of three years ago, I have attended a dozen or so "play parties", and had about the same amount of more personal experiences. I have enjoyed each (oh so very much!), but desire so much more. A more personal and extended relationship.
In this way, perhaps I am like many not necessarily new to BDSM, but not yet fully engaged, as it may be thought of.
The delight in surrender to a woman, in giving over control, and allowing myself to be used, abused, delighted, hurt, made to fell humiliated, made to feel proud, pleasure, pain - so many feelings, is truly amazing. The dilemmas of how far to go, who to stretch limits with, if indeed one can find any One at all, are daunting.
Yet I believe that the dilemma and the delight are mixed together, are part of one....can't find a good enough word - the same matrix? (too bs technical!). So it is all together, and perhaps a part of the desire for this unusual style.
I guess that my biggest hope is just to find One to explore with, and see where it goes...
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