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WhiplashSmile2 -> The Catch 22, Love and Rockets (6/13/2008 1:35:36 AM)
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I'm not certain when in life I reached this conclusion or POV.
There was time when I figured out that simply having a one night stand, more times then not, frequently leads to one or other person feeling the firework rockets go off. Most of the time, it's not mutual ether.
There was a time when I figured out that simply having a fuck buddy or BDSM play partner, would lead to the same firework rockets. Where there were real growing emotions of some form or type of love.
That as much as we attempt to have cheap meaningless sex and play with one another, things generally turn out otherwise.
Even when we do have cheap meaningless wonder play or Sex, it tends to remind one of something missing or void, if we are not in emotionally involved in a relationship. If we do have cheap meaningless sex or play, it tends to either drives one to become closer to their partner, or it starts to open up a small riff in the relationship. Strange funny issues centered around love.
I'm not always perfect at always following my general code of conduct when I'm single. However, I tend to give things careful thought before saying yes to a one night stand, play partner or having a fuck buddy. Sure, things might start off nice and simple, but.... there's always those damn Firework Rockets and the high chances for some form of love to evol out of it.
Many times, the fireworks and love that starts to grow is not mutual. That tends to fuck up our best intentions at having a relationship without love, one night stands without love, fuck buddies and play partners.
The Love and Rockets dynamic changes the landscape somewhat. Even more so when The Green Eyed Monster of Jealously rears it head. The Greedy desire of simply wanting to spend more and more time with the object of affection. The Pain in the Ass codependancy Triggers, Stalkerish behaviors. The person not returning the Love might feel like an aweful person if they continue onward because they can not give love in return. The person falling in love might not be able to use the Object of their affection for Wicked Nasty Kinky Abuse and use. So many different things can happen. Let's not forget the people that hook up to make their Long term relationship partners jealous. They know that it can draw their partners closer to them. So they go out and find somebody to use. Drama can unfold. Endless mindless Drama.
In many ways, there are some alternatives to cheating. Such as Sharing, Swinging, Swapping, Cuckolding.. some of these things actually bring and draw people in relationships together. However, it can also tear a relationship apart in a heatbeat.
It can be a bitch when one is single or not in a committed relationship, because that could be misunderstood that you are available. Basically, just because I use somebody for sex or play it should not be assumed that I'm willing to take it any further. However, I know better. I know the Catch 22 involved.
I know the Catch 22 of having a relationship without Love as well. When somebody is so deep into you, and you ain't feeling it. I know the experience of having a slave jump on top of me while laying in bed, after I released her. Having her in tears, in deep pain, beating on my chest, hearing "Don't you give up on me, Don't give up on us"... to have her pleading with me. I did love her in my own way, but it was not the same. Actually, I tend to think I had some sort of overly romantic ideal of Love stuck inside my head at the time. Dare I say it now. I think I was a complete asshole for having released her. This is in retrospect.
Love can be a strange thing, many of us humans don't fully understand it or get until we are older, some of us never get it or understand it. Tends to fuck with our minds a little. Personally, I enjoy what the Dictionary has to say about it Love and the many meanings.
Those Damn Love and Rockets. Yes, this is a little word ploy on a Band name as well. Got to Love the Catch 22 of it all.
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