RiotGirl -> RE: Daddy/little girl (4/14/2006 5:31:18 PM)
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Not for me. I need a guardian or someone else there actively enabling it for me, letting me know it's ok to go to that vulnerable space and that I won't have to interact as an adult. quote:
I dont do things to bring little-girl-ism into my life, its already there Both are true. Except LA, i just need some one around that gives me that "safe" feeling so that i can act as myself. Otherwise, i'm pretty held back and reserved. Though, when i'm by myself or not with "ppl" i feel free. Its just apart of me. Having an unmentionable makes it all much more easier to enjoy things with. going out to kill ant hills just to "see" what it looks like inside ah with my unmentionable, we used to paint our arms and legs and then ended up throwing it at each other or the wall = ) Playing in the rain. Jumping in puddles. Used to play barbies as a kid, cant do that anymore tho. Pretend games.. /nods ponies is fun. And little ppl used to be fun. They're Discovery city used to make cool noises = ) and had some cute songs. Umm.. just play. Its a cool place to be actually. The world is bright and new, everything is just awesome, new discoveries everywhere.. just happy and innocent.. none of the adult crap that comes with life. No stress, no worries and when no ones around.. no one to tell you what NOT to do <grins> But i suppose thats outside of any bdsm thing.. its just a place in your head to be, and enjoy i suppose. That i think alot of people miss out on. And i usually seperate from any sort of adult thing.. and its abit wierd to relate the two. "age play/acting like a kid" But i suppose its not "age play" to me. Its just a way to be. Sometimes.. i just hop in circles = ) Just randomly, cos its fun. Hop and spin! Spinning in cicles is fun, but its kind of scary if some one else does it. Had a friend who randomly picked me up and did it and i think i started screaming. It scared the tar out of me. Roller coasters can be fun. Pillow fights! Food fights! Randomly tossing things at ppl, just cos its fun? Course not hard things. Tackling.. thats fun. Ah.. just throwing yourself at them and tackling them! But of course its not always wise. Actually some of these things arent wise (food fight) when there is an adult around, unless of course they're game for it. And i'm told drawing on yourself is a no, but (shakes head and looks to the sky) i always seem to end up with markers or pen on me. dun know how it gets there = ) He just usually shakes his head at me. Food fights are a definete "no" but then i've never actually thrown food AT him.. <wicked grin> i wonder how he'd react. He would probably raise his eye brows in shock. i've a friend online that i randomly "age" play with. i suppose. Its just the way we converse. He calls me kelly belly and i call him grandpa (since i have a daddy) Grandpa perv = ) It just the way we converse, tho sometimes its like it gets pretend, like we're there in person.. and i think it was like my first experience with age play. He generally knows if i'm in a space to be silly. Like, he'll threaten to switch my behind and i'll taunt back "not if you cant catch me" (and of course take off flying in this pretend world) He enjoys the abit of the brattiness, i suppose is what it is, and i always get a good chuckle from him when i spout off as he knows really i wouldnt do it. With my Master - there is always that dynamic of Daddy/little girl. It just is. i never believe him before that it was there until he showed it to me and after awhile of learning to accept its now something i have no problems with. Learning to call him Daddy, was majorly difficult! It used to throw me into major embarresment and fits of giggles/laughter and saying it was majorly difficult. i just couldnt get the word out. Have a vanilla friend who knows of my lifestyle and has no problems with it.. so she helped. She'd playfully call him "daddy" and i of couse would die of embarressment.. she just helped me "practice" using it. Though when she first started out with the word, i would retardedly roar with laughter to drown her out. <grins> Arg i was sooooooooo embarressed. Now i'm good tho. But it just is. Something i'm happy to have been able to accept consciously. As he was before i excepted it and i suppose its just the interaction. He cuddles alot with me and knows at times all i need is a hug. Of course there is alot of playfullness that goes on, with of course him allowing and him setting the limits on. Stepping past the limits, usually gets me into "adult" trouble. Mainly just, play time stops and he is very unpleased and sometimes i get into serious trouble. Depending on what i've done. At times there is play trouble, but if you play TOO much during play trouble (like not listening), it'll get you into serious trouble. i dunno its just the way it is. Tons of limits of things i "cant" do and of course i always push those limits to see how far i can go. = ) i'm a pusher limiter = ) (thats latin) heh. Just plain silliness = ) Just add alot of silliness, i suppose and i usually only call him Daddy when i'm feeling all sweet and loving and just soft i suppose. rah Like to give an example when my friend walked me through the age play thing and it got naughty (arg, i'm embarressed) he was talking about touching it and playing with it to make cream come out.. and i got frustrated cos the cream didnt come out.. so i started getting rougher, and then looking down the hole trying to find the cream. Cos well ya know, he said cream would come out.. and it didnt come out in the time i wanted it to come out.. So i tried to MAKE it come out and then of course i went looking for it. <sigh>
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