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LuvnFemAuthority -> And now for something completely different... (6/20/2008 1:44:00 PM)
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I'm a rare and unique bird. I am less interested in bedroom display of bdsm than I am control and dominance in the general relationship. I am not at all opposed to kink but it isn't the focus for me. I want to own a man's heart and mind (ie. psychological domination). Any display of kink would be solely to display that ownership.
I have tried very unsuccessfully to find men in the vanilla world. Most feel threatened by me and/or are not willing to admit their true nature. I find that most men that claim they want an "equal" relationship really still try to assert authority. This leads to a long series of battles and an inevitable breakup. Yet on this site I mostly find masochists, guys that want some porn fantasy, have no idea at all what they really want, or are complete fakers. My Dom friend says I'm looking for the golden needle in the agri-corp warehouse of hay. Sigh.
I'm 32. I'm short and round. I have huge tracts of land (do I have explain Python references to you?). I'm ethnically Italian. My best features are my eyes and lips. I'm masters educated and hence brainy. I probably over think. I'm a very soft-hearted woman, honest, true to my word, strong, respectful, even giving. I'm sensitive and romantic. I'm creative. I'm a fantastic chef (it's the Italian blood). Most of all I'm multidimensional and well-rounded.
I want a partner in life not a beast of burden to spit on. I want someone to share his innermost identity by day and cuddle at night. I want him to serve me out of love and respect, even admiration. I want a true submissive that is eager to please and nurturing by nature. I want him to be alpha in his daily life. He should, like myself, be highly educated. intensely intellectual, and successful. Yet wag his lil behind when I step through the door and want to curl up on the couch next to me with his head in my lap so I can pet him.
And I want real love. The kind of love that can be described as a union where he and I becomes almost a separate entity: we. The "we" is forged through constant care, deeper understanding, and true friendship.
It is not just a dream. I had this briefly once. I long for it again.
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