came4U -> Floored! Literally. (6/29/2008 7:14:23 AM)
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The thread titled 'Misleading Dominants' reminded me of something I was going to post yesterday then other things came up. Anyhoo...something my Daddy said a few days ago just floored me. It was not decietful persay, merely a WHOMP in my mental status. First, how we met....Years ago (maybe 5, 6 yrs ago) I heard him, he was breathtaking. I confronted him. I said you are the 'one'. Of course, he thought I was kinda cookoo (which I am). No, he is not a lifestyler, just plain dominant in every sense of the word (in presence and life in general) and to those around him. So years go by, playing here and there, (if I am not being obstinant that is). Stubborn and cold, in my fight to trust him and let him lead me. So, (a few times in these years) I get all down and guilty (again) for being the dirty minded cunt that I am and felt like I 'made' him do all these nasty (but yummy) things to me. lol. So in this mood, I tell him the same sob story....."I'm sorry I make you do this stuff to me, I don't want you to become mentally disturbed by it all". He laughed. I gasped. He more or less tells me "Do you think that I don't know what I am doing in my use of you???", "Do you think I haven't been patient in waiting for YOU to submit to ME" with as little force as possible because you are a little spoiled bitch?" lollolollol I was floored. All this time, my Daddy has been waiting for me to come to terms with myself not to terms with HIM. The result??? I come crawling to HIM for more. I always thought I was a few steps ahead of him lol. I thought I had control (of him, of this, of everything I do). Well, surprise, surprise goober (me) I DON'T. Thinking that I created him and his lusts and desires was my first mistake. He is a grown man full of experiences himself. Soooo..not like being misleading is a 'bad thing' but am/was I the only one have the wind knocked out of me by someone so calculatingly yet evilly sweet and patient. Please tell me I am not the only one.
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