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Owner4SexSlave -> RE: Lies (7/10/2008 4:37:22 AM)
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It's difficult to pack it in on things we want to work out. Yet, it's difficult trying to make things work out to only find it's really going nowhere. It's a double edge sword of staying with it or packing it in. It almost becomes a twisted form of emotional masochism.
However, once you've become emotionally drain, the emotional masochism is not very much fun anymore. To finally reach your emotional limits. I read a post on here last week, basically it a general statement about anything that will cause them permantant harm or fuck them up for the long term, is not something they are into doing. The post was about physical things, however, I stopped and thought about it from the mental and emotional ends.
Some relationships are best to stay clear of, if they are going to fuck you up.
It's a lot to deal with and sort out. Trust me, I know all too well. You have to consider though, that packing it in on something really is the best thing to do. That really you are not giving up, that in all honestly if you stuck with the current relationship you would be giving up on things. Basically somebody else is probally more worth your time and energy. Do you see where I'm coming from, when I say if you stick with what is going on, you are actually giving up on something?
I totally understand how hurt, leads to frustration, then how that shifts into anger. I even know how anger then shifts back to the true pain that it really is, and deep into something call sadness. Sadness leads to depression, depression to a sense of dispair. Then you give up in believing that there's anything beautiful in this world to be had.
If you stick this out for too long, it will damage things such as faith, sense of self worth, belief that good things can happen. All that fun stuff. You'll find yourself becoming Jaded and Cynical, and a little bit pissed off at the world around you.
Sure, all us human beings are not perfect. We all have our flaws and faults. We all have our darksides. But we also have other qualities, strengths, wonders and beautiful things about ourselves.
I'm just tossing out things on this message board. Trust me, I've been to Hell and Back again, and Hell and back again. Each time, it changed me. For the better or for the worse, I have not figured it out yet. I just know personally, It effected me.
Ok, I know I'm a DOM and I'm supposed to be all Domly and powerful. But I tell you, emotions when you have them. You have them. When I hurt, I hurt, when I love, I Love. Really simple as that. We all have emotions that we have to deal with. It's hard to look somebody in the eyes, say, "I love, but this all has to end".
I generally try my best to talk and communicate things, figure out if anything can be done. However, there comes a time, when you realized, you have tried everything humanly that you know about doing. When you yourself run out of options, games plans and your own coping abilities are being exceeded. It's time to bail...
The alternative is to keep on going "living life in a living Hell", pressing forward with a strange twisted form of "living death".
Ok, I know I'm expressing a lot of things. A lot of things from my own personal experience and from my perspective.
The only person that can save you from anybody including yourself, is yourself.
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