writerly808
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(Fast reply) It seems to me that the OP still has a very teen mindset - surprising, considering her stated age. I know when I was younger, I would get in trouble for doing/not doing something, and then surreptitiously try to work around the resultant punishment. I often got caught, or felt a guilty glee with getting away with doing something wrong. And then I realised that this attitude helps *no one*, least of all me, so why push boundaries like that? Now, it could be that the OP sincerely is ashamed of her behaviour; she does say that she's relatively new to BDSM, and we all know that it's a bit of a learning curve. :) OTOH, she could be fishing for more attention than her Dom gives her. Or she could simply be deliberately courting punishment because a) she realizes that she needs it and/or needs firmer guidance and is acting out to make him see it, or b) because she could. Both are a sort of brattiness, I guess, but I'd think the former more acceptable than the latter. (Even so, simply telling him about it would've been much less incendiary, I should think.) Then again, I'm not a Dom. :P But if I did something like what the OP did, I would expect computer privileges to be taken away or strictly controlled, at the very *least*. On a less serious note, how exactly can a sub become involved in Gor without his/her Dom? Unless you mean on a purely theoretical level...
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