LadyM66
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To littleone35 and others, I'd like to chime in. This is my first real post here, though I did post an intro on the intro board. So greetings! And thank you for your company. I apologize for the War and Peace novel i proffer as my first post.........
Yes, in fact, for better or worse, this matter of displeasing my Master and resistance to a command has come up a lot since I moved in with my Master. Let me qualify something first, so the context is a little easier to understand. Its complex, so if i confuse you all instead i apologize.
i am owned by my Master, collared with an Eternity collar since last October. The "super-structure" is that...but it gets confusing because we switch. It balances out most of the time because his sub side is about as strong as my Domme side. We mostly base our switching on seasons, since he enjoys cross-dressing as a part of his sub identity, and frankly, makeup and 10 layers of girl clothes in the Summer is the wrong kind of torture.
That being said, the running joke is: "Who's in charge here?!" Us: "Yes." Unfortunately, sometimes the answer is "No" - i.e. no-one. Or no-one *effectively* in charge. If he had as much of a slave mindset when he was sub as i do when i am, things would be a lot simpler. The truth is, though i have this very real Dominant side, my ultimate aim is to please him and have him be happy.
In the early spring when we were preparing for me (and my daughter) to move in, I made an explicit list of things which were to be accomplished. He insisted that he could and should be pushed to accomplish these things but bristled when I actually *did* push in a Dominant fashion. Not wishing to piss off my Master (see how crazy this is?) and also not interested in trying to teach pigs to sing, I backed off. When we switched back to me as sub in late Spring, I made mention of the preparations that still needed to be made, and extenuating circumstances, health and excuses stopped things from getting done. I insisted that there would be no where to put my things and these protestations were pushed aside. Again, *not wishing to piss off my Master* there was only so "firm" I could be.
Sadly, I could see a huge problem looming. Ultimately, we would both be unhappy with the result, I knew. And when there was no where to put most of my things because of lack of preparation, he got upset with me for not unpacking! It was surreal and frustrating. I was making him upset for not unpacking. SOME of his upset was legit. I could have unpacked a little more than I did. But I get frustrated when I am not able to complete a task or do it well!
It must be noted that the subsequent fight we had was the Friday night after I moved in. My duties in taking care of my daughter are solely my own (he is not involved in that) and involves me getting up at six, going to work, picking her up, giving her care and attention and putting her to bed in the evening. It was after this rather long and arduous day (15 hours, par for the course, i'm not complaining, but reality must frame this discussion), after I had changed into my pajamas, that he brought this up and announced that it was time for me to get to work.
I am sooooooo confused about how I could have prevented this from happening. I truly feel as if I did what I could to prevent it, and still have a Master who is unhappy with me.
In fairness to my Master, he has subsequently made an attempt to create more storage space and this has assisted in having a place to put things. I just wish I could have prevented the whole damn debacle from happening!!!!!!!
Ugh. I can just imagine that there well may have been nothing more I could have done to make this better...but *please* if you have any advice, i'm all ears.
~ mariana
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ORIGINAL: littleone35
This is mostly for submissives but all are welcome to answer.
Has your Master/Daddy/Dom ever ask you to do something (non Sexual)you really really did not want to do? If so did you:
1. Do it happily because it pleased him
2. Do it because it was expected of you
3. Respectfully refuse to do it
This came to mind because i was talking to a friend who is 24/7 with her Master. She works outside the house, and one day she was really tired and her Master wanted her to make this big fancy dinner. She did it because it was expected of her, but she was not a happy submissive. Her Dom knew how tired she was but he wanted what he wanted. She did however get cuddles andd praises later.
Matt's littleone
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