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innocentangel -> a girl's thoughts (7/30/2004 12:06:20 AM)
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Sitting here, time idly passing by. A mind drifts back to the several
conversations shared, the ideas that have been planted like a seed into
one’s head. The anxiety, curiosity, and willingness to learn making
the seeds grow as the thoughts and ideas blossom into fantasies and
daydreams. An open mind drifts to these dreams envisioning the life before her and the future that has not yet been written. The servitude her soul so badly craves driving madly at her instincts, begging to be released, to be set free. The fear of the unknown enveloping her body as it excites her deeply. What will it be like? How well can she handle it? Will she be able to handle it? Is this really what she wants or is it some crazy fantasy? So many questions without any answers, the answers which won’t come until she has the chance to live these dreams. Longing for the closeness and the bond that comes between a Master and His slave. A bond no other couple could possibly imagine. His loving embrace and caring ways, but also knowing He will accept nothing but the best from His pet. There is no half-assing it as the saying goes. She learns to give all or nothing. A constant yearning for the training a kajira goes through to please her Master burns deep within one’s soul. A heart flutters and a shiver courses down her spine with every thought of the Man that owns her, she knows He owns her. Then slowly she drifts back from the clouds to reality, back to her drab life as she now knows it, so boring and ‘lifeless’. She sighs knowing that she will patiently await the day she meets her Master, but until then will embrace the wisdom He shares with her, taking it all in and struggling to keep the thriving kajira within until she can be where she truly belongs…………at His feet.
innocentangel
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